lourah1989
03-04-13, 02:22
Hey guys
Been a long ass time since I write on here, but I need your support, to get me through this.
So it's 2 am and I'm awake just sitting in my bath room, I am a binge drinker I have been for around 6 or 7 years. I drink almost every day I don't drink all day but I drink a lot in a short amount of time, mainly to sleep and to deal with the horrible thoughts my anxiety gives me, I suffer from health anxiety, mainly about my heart. Because I drink my anxiety becomes somewhat unbareable I jump out my skin all the time and believe I'm actually going to die some time soon which I will if I don't quit alcohol.
Today is the day my life changes I've had enough of irrational thoughts lack of sleep, feeling groggy and in general feeling like I'm on my way out, I'm 23 I have the rest of my life ahead of me but I wake up most mornings and I don't even want to be here anymore, but then when I feel like shit from alcohol I actually am petrified to die.
I have previously cut my self and I refuse to try medication again, I used to be so happy go lucky drank but never had anxiety or depression until one day I drank to much and had a panic attack, my breathing was effed up and since that day every day in been a binge drinker with severe anxiety. I go though my months were u hit the gym and feel great but I end up back to square one, I have counselling but again end up back to square one.
I'm turning a new leaf as of now because this has to end or I will never have anything but this a life of misery and anxiety spending my days waiting to die.
The joke about it is I now I can go wit out alcohol and I now I hate it so please some one tell me why I'm always here throwing my guts ups shaking and feeling depressed .
As of this moment in time I vow to never touch another alcoholic drink again, I
have said this before but this time I mean it partially because I now my body can not take an more, so please if any one has any tips of getting me though this very hard time feel free to leave your storys and words of encouragement.
POSITIVITY HARD WORK DETERMINATION AND CHANGE :yesyes:
There is nothing more in this world I want other than my life back and a normal one which doesn't involve alcohol panic attacks and anxiety
Here we go guys time for change wish me luck I'm sure as hell going to need it
Xxxxxxx
Been a long ass time since I write on here, but I need your support, to get me through this.
So it's 2 am and I'm awake just sitting in my bath room, I am a binge drinker I have been for around 6 or 7 years. I drink almost every day I don't drink all day but I drink a lot in a short amount of time, mainly to sleep and to deal with the horrible thoughts my anxiety gives me, I suffer from health anxiety, mainly about my heart. Because I drink my anxiety becomes somewhat unbareable I jump out my skin all the time and believe I'm actually going to die some time soon which I will if I don't quit alcohol.
Today is the day my life changes I've had enough of irrational thoughts lack of sleep, feeling groggy and in general feeling like I'm on my way out, I'm 23 I have the rest of my life ahead of me but I wake up most mornings and I don't even want to be here anymore, but then when I feel like shit from alcohol I actually am petrified to die.
I have previously cut my self and I refuse to try medication again, I used to be so happy go lucky drank but never had anxiety or depression until one day I drank to much and had a panic attack, my breathing was effed up and since that day every day in been a binge drinker with severe anxiety. I go though my months were u hit the gym and feel great but I end up back to square one, I have counselling but again end up back to square one.
I'm turning a new leaf as of now because this has to end or I will never have anything but this a life of misery and anxiety spending my days waiting to die.
The joke about it is I now I can go wit out alcohol and I now I hate it so please some one tell me why I'm always here throwing my guts ups shaking and feeling depressed .
As of this moment in time I vow to never touch another alcoholic drink again, I
have said this before but this time I mean it partially because I now my body can not take an more, so please if any one has any tips of getting me though this very hard time feel free to leave your storys and words of encouragement.
POSITIVITY HARD WORK DETERMINATION AND CHANGE :yesyes:
There is nothing more in this world I want other than my life back and a normal one which doesn't involve alcohol panic attacks and anxiety
Here we go guys time for change wish me luck I'm sure as hell going to need it
Xxxxxxx