lourah1989
03-04-13, 21:06
Hey guys
So today is my first day of no alcohol consumption, years of binge drinking and I've decided I've had enough of hangovers panic attack grogginess and first and foremost I want my damn life back.
So yes ... Today has been hard I drank yesterday and that was when I decided I'd had enough of the drunk life, I've had anxiety all day I feel like complete ass my anxiety is sky high and I'm convinced I'm going to die. :weep:
But most nights by this time I'm out of my tree or in a deep alcohol induced coma so hey on the bright side I'm sober. I'm feeling so positive about. Hanging my life style today I even ate healthy. I'm looking forward to the coming months I have been sober for a whole week straight since I was about 17 I'm 23 now Nd drink has been my life for so long, the night time is the hardest for me because that's when I normally binge drink, why I do it I still don't now, I now the consequences but I still put my self in the same situation. What a moron.
Any way I'm writing these post because I now that there is a lot of people who self medicate anxiety depression and panic Attacks with alcohol but don't speak up so I want to show people that there is away out and there is other people just like you. Alcohol is an addictive drug and your not allown so reach out get support write An absolute essay on here every day if need be.
Where there is dark, there is light !!!
Tommarow is day 2 for me And I'm ready to kick some ass lol, even though at this moment in time I think I'm going to die in my sleep Nd I have the most irrational thoughts ever but hey god didn't make the world in a day
All the positive messages on here today have kept me sane also ...
:) eff you alcohol xxxxx
So today is my first day of no alcohol consumption, years of binge drinking and I've decided I've had enough of hangovers panic attack grogginess and first and foremost I want my damn life back.
So yes ... Today has been hard I drank yesterday and that was when I decided I'd had enough of the drunk life, I've had anxiety all day I feel like complete ass my anxiety is sky high and I'm convinced I'm going to die. :weep:
But most nights by this time I'm out of my tree or in a deep alcohol induced coma so hey on the bright side I'm sober. I'm feeling so positive about. Hanging my life style today I even ate healthy. I'm looking forward to the coming months I have been sober for a whole week straight since I was about 17 I'm 23 now Nd drink has been my life for so long, the night time is the hardest for me because that's when I normally binge drink, why I do it I still don't now, I now the consequences but I still put my self in the same situation. What a moron.
Any way I'm writing these post because I now that there is a lot of people who self medicate anxiety depression and panic Attacks with alcohol but don't speak up so I want to show people that there is away out and there is other people just like you. Alcohol is an addictive drug and your not allown so reach out get support write An absolute essay on here every day if need be.
Where there is dark, there is light !!!
Tommarow is day 2 for me And I'm ready to kick some ass lol, even though at this moment in time I think I'm going to die in my sleep Nd I have the most irrational thoughts ever but hey god didn't make the world in a day
All the positive messages on here today have kept me sane also ...
:) eff you alcohol xxxxx