Adsterrr
04-04-13, 04:49
I've only ever posted on the introductions page on this forum but I seriously need to vent. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
My friends from Leeds are back to the town they come from (Bishop Auckland) which is where I also live. They're my best friends and they're only home for a couple of days.
They really want to go out tomorrow night, however i'm terrified to go out. I hate the area where I live, on nights out there I feel awkward, panicky and really not myself.
They've all told me how excited they are to see me and i just can't let them down, i'd feel terrible. However, I don't feel like i am physically or emotionally able to go out. I'm writing this at 10 to 5 in the morning because I can't sleep thinking about it...it's driving me insane. I've taken some sleeping tablets but they're not working. My head feels like everything's racing through it at once and I just can't cope...
I know this doesn't sound like a 'big deal' but it's really affecting me. I feel like such an idiot to get so worked up about going on a night out. I just want to wish all of my anxiety away, go out and have a really great night with my friends. BLARGHHHH!
My friends from Leeds are back to the town they come from (Bishop Auckland) which is where I also live. They're my best friends and they're only home for a couple of days.
They really want to go out tomorrow night, however i'm terrified to go out. I hate the area where I live, on nights out there I feel awkward, panicky and really not myself.
They've all told me how excited they are to see me and i just can't let them down, i'd feel terrible. However, I don't feel like i am physically or emotionally able to go out. I'm writing this at 10 to 5 in the morning because I can't sleep thinking about it...it's driving me insane. I've taken some sleeping tablets but they're not working. My head feels like everything's racing through it at once and I just can't cope...
I know this doesn't sound like a 'big deal' but it's really affecting me. I feel like such an idiot to get so worked up about going on a night out. I just want to wish all of my anxiety away, go out and have a really great night with my friends. BLARGHHHH!