Rubystarlight
04-04-13, 23:47
Hello,
I'm new here to this forum, and to any forum about anxiety at all, I don't even know what is wrong with me or what I have got, I just know that there is something seriously wrong in the way my mental health issues have gotten over the last few years, to the extent my life feels not so much my own. I'm 26, have a 7 year old son and a baby on the way.
It's like my worlds gotten so small over the last few years and things that normal people can do I can't do any more.
I have panic moments, scared moments, I can't leave the house as often, I'm now unable to use public transport, I've even stopped being able to drive the 15 minutes to the local shops, I can't even pick my son up from school any more because of how worked up it makes me.
One of the biggest fears is a fear about being unable to get to a toilet, even in my own home now if someone is in the bathroom I panic that I'll need to go and just want them to hurry up and get out, so much to the extent that I threw up in the kitchen sink because it worried me when my dad was visiting that he was in there for too long.
My husband has now started to have to do more and more, he has to get all the shopping, pick son up from school and if I do feel able to go out the house he'll have to come with me, but even when I'm out I feel terrible like all I want is to be back home, back in my comfort zone and safe.
I can't talk to the doctor, every time I go nothing comes out with the extent of how I'm feeling about it all or the stress of it makes me really have to go to the bathroom so bad that I worry about my bowels and then don't make it to the doctors at all.
I've no idea what is wrong with me but I feel this is taking over my life. :(
I'm new here to this forum, and to any forum about anxiety at all, I don't even know what is wrong with me or what I have got, I just know that there is something seriously wrong in the way my mental health issues have gotten over the last few years, to the extent my life feels not so much my own. I'm 26, have a 7 year old son and a baby on the way.
It's like my worlds gotten so small over the last few years and things that normal people can do I can't do any more.
I have panic moments, scared moments, I can't leave the house as often, I'm now unable to use public transport, I've even stopped being able to drive the 15 minutes to the local shops, I can't even pick my son up from school any more because of how worked up it makes me.
One of the biggest fears is a fear about being unable to get to a toilet, even in my own home now if someone is in the bathroom I panic that I'll need to go and just want them to hurry up and get out, so much to the extent that I threw up in the kitchen sink because it worried me when my dad was visiting that he was in there for too long.
My husband has now started to have to do more and more, he has to get all the shopping, pick son up from school and if I do feel able to go out the house he'll have to come with me, but even when I'm out I feel terrible like all I want is to be back home, back in my comfort zone and safe.
I can't talk to the doctor, every time I go nothing comes out with the extent of how I'm feeling about it all or the stress of it makes me really have to go to the bathroom so bad that I worry about my bowels and then don't make it to the doctors at all.
I've no idea what is wrong with me but I feel this is taking over my life. :(