FW: How much more can I take

[Sue K with 5]

As some of you know my last four weeks have been pretty crap, my 15 year old son left home after numerous arguements about his behaviour and about him coming home for his tea and in the last three weeks, I have been arrested, insulted and basically bloody put through a living hell.

Last night my 19 year old son was attacked by a man, I dont mean beaten either, he managed to fend off his attacker and because he fought back he was arrested and put into a cell for 16 hours, he was eventually set free at 4pm yesterday.

I spent all night going through hell, because this year he had already been put into prison after he got involved in the wrong crowd and served 7 weeks.

My fifteen year old is currently making life hell for us all and to finally finish me off today many of you received emails about me. These were sent because I refused to hand over £4500 to keep this person quiet.

Now I think I cant take much more from anyone, especially the humilation of the content of these emails.

I have much support from you guys and for that I am eternally grateful.

I made a mistake last year and for that I am paying dearly, but I dont deserve to be judged or blackmailed by anyone.

Please please forgive me for involving you in this my MSN account was hacked by this person and he sent lude messages and pictures to many people some of who are under the age of 14.

I am so so sorry !!

Please forgive me !!

Trac thank you honey for what you did today, you are a wonderful caring person and you will always hold a place in my heart! Nic thank you for your email and you kind words.



scknight

[lildutt]

hun i havent been around the last couple o days or weeks
but here major big bear hugs for you babes
hope things start working out better for you soon bellxx

[Piglet]

I had 9 e-mails in my hotmail account yesterday concerning this and deleted the lot without reading any of them.

I respect your privacy - it's none of our business and it should stay that way.

I know you are having a hard time at the moment Sue and I hope this gets better very soon. We all know the teenage years are tough but you hang in there hun. Try and hold on to who you are if you can and don't let yourself be brought down to a level where you don't like your own behaviour.

All you can do while your teenagers find their feet (and this can be spectacular at times) is let them know you love them but you have boundaries and these must be respected, especially while you are bringing up the rest of the family. I always think consistency and a hell of a lot of patience helps alot here.

We none of us know all the answers mate and can only do our best - I was wanting to say something about staying calm but that cracked me up so much on many different levels that I couldn't, not least cos my own neighbours might have an opinion on that [:I][:I][:I]:D:D:D:D

Love Piglet x

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[susie]

i know nothing about this but i will say i feel so sorry for you yes you have been to hell and back big hugs and i hope things get better for you soon take care suexx

[Peru83]

I know that you and I haven't been seen to get along in the past, but I am appaulled at how the person in question has behaved. Even I wouldn't stoop that low ;)[:P]

Seriously though, I am really sorry for all you are going through at the moment and hope that all of this resolves it's self soon.

Take Carexx

claire

onwards and upwards

[kazzie]

Hi Sue, cant comment on the other problems but when it comes to teenage boys I could write the book!!! If you want a chat feel free to pm me! Cant promise all the answers but may be able to offer you some advice or at least a shoulder to cry on!!! Take Care mate, Best Wishes Kaz x

[hurtssomuch]

First off all I want to say is I am so sorry, after dumping me again the night before I was suppose to be on a plane, as she has done to me 7 times, now, sue started calling me , and texting me, I snapped ,I am sorry.

But if any of you have read any of the IMs between me and sue, you would no that the 4500 lbs she claims I was trying to black mail out of her, was to make sure she didn’t leave me at the airport , lone, and broke, with no where to go, AGAIN, 7 times she has done this to me,

You make up your own mind, I sent the proof of her lies, she lies to you, and me, her family, everyone, and it was 1300 lbs she offerd me, to help me as she said, I deserved it she said, for all I have lost for her. and then for 7 days tormented me, always telling me she would send it later,

But none of this ios an excuse for what I did, and I no that, from the bottom of my heart I am sorry, I will never darken this sight again, none of you will ever hear from me again,

I am truly sorry.





Nevermore

Shattered forms that shape the dust,
where in passing foot falls gust,
has left an imprint, only just,

where she once walked across my floor.

In the winds small wisps of swirling,
a small leaf with edges curling,
sits upon my floor a whirling,

where her presence graced that door.

And in its small and sallow breeze,
scent remembered, senses tease,
on your scent my senses seize,

remnants of the times of yore.

All that’s left’s for me to mire,
is but loss of heart's desire,
to my heart the floor is higher,

and my heart knows love no more.

Now these darkened palisades
once held fondness in my gaze
have seen there, brighter better days.

Days I wholly did adore,

so here I sit... Until I tire...
To do but naught...
just sit and mire.

What about?.. My heart's desire…

and the Loneliness, I cannot ignore.

It feels like

…I will love

………nevermore.........




Im sorry. !!!!!!

[Ammeg]

Hey sue!!
well i must have been in a world of me own hun, i really didnt have a clue all this was goin on!!! Im sorry things have been crap for u me love!!! Sending u lots of hugs!! Hope ur ok!!!
Gemxxx

Oh and John Adams- if ur new how did u get the emails??????????

[trac67]

Hi Sue,

I know you have been going through a lot lately and yesterday, well that really was the last straw, just glad I could help.

Ed if you read this I am not bloody impressed that my 18 year old daughter got the mails also she opened them infront of my 10 year old daughter not realising what they were and my 10 year old so did not need to see those pornographic photographs, I tried to help you from the very beginning, but now after all you have done, thats it no more, this time you have gone too far mate.

Sue it will all blow over and be tomorrows news soon mate, chin up.

Love

Trac xx

'Live your life with arms wide open, today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten'

[Southern_Belle]

Hi Sue,

I am so sorry that your son was attacked yesterday and hope he is okay. We have talked about the "teen" years and know how difficult they can be regarding your 15 year old and I know that he will come around someday. As for someone hacking into your msn account you have nothing to apologize for, no-one should be blackmailed, and like Trac says it will be old news so just try and forget about it and remember that he didn't send it to your enemies but your friends who support you. Try and do something good for yourself today, you need it.

Bel

"Our thoughts are our reality"

[eeyorelover]

Sue -
You know I'm always here for ya hun if you need to talk or anything!!!!
Sounds like you're in hormone hell!! I've been there for awhile now so welcome to the club - lol
As far as the personal thing with you know who.
Don't let it get you down hun!!!!
We all love ya and know what kind of person you are and NOTHING AND NO ONE will change that !!!!!!!
Better sign off before I start singin 'ain't no mountain high enough' or something. You know I'm not real good at the mushy stuff!!

Lots of hugs for ya (((((((((SUE))))))))))

xxx
Sandy

PS Great now that damn song is stuck in my head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Lucy36]

OMG

wat ave i missed.. another bonus episode of eastenders!!!

chin up sue it;ll all blow over.. u will learn in time like me to trust yourself and no one else.. why do ye think i dont post or come on here anymore.. and i take long breaks..

pm me for a chat if you want sue

take care
luce xxx

[ruthb1]

sue,

i dont really know what to say apart from i am sorry for all that you are going through. i know that you have had such a heard time and this year has been not one to remember. you have got to put yourself first sue and remember that you have always got friends on here no matter what, your true friends will always be here.

so try and stay positive and if you need to pm me feel free i am always here for you

take care hun

ruth x x x

[strawberrie]

hi sue, i got the mails and having opened the first one and realising what it was i deleted the rest without opening them, my guess is that most people will have done the same, so i don't think people will have read lots of private stuff about you.

i'm sorry you're having such a tough time at the moment. you are a very warm and kind person, i really hope things get better for you soon.

mag xx

[anxious]

Sounds like you've got a lot of support here Sue.

(((hugs))))
anx x

Laughter is a tranquilizer with no side effects

[alexis]

This is the worst time in my life and I got these mails,Ed, if you are reading, I would like to say thanks!!! Thanks for nothing! No.......... correction Thanks for making things worse!!!

Alexis
xx

[Sue K with 5]

Im so so sorry for what this has done to you guys, alex im so so sorry you have no idea how terrible i feel.

Today I have sat down and taken a long hard look at myself and mylife, i went out today and had the first panic attack in four weeks, it was crap and then I realised I was having a panic attack for nothing!! I was wasting my energy on a pile of crap!!

In the last year I have thrown away the most important thing that mattered my children and my friends. I spoke to my awfully posh sister today and poured out my heart and do you know what she said

"WHO GIVES A DAMN SUE" It will be tomorrows chip paper, Oh Im sure people will talk about this for a while. But what you all have to know and remember is that I am the person who has always been there for people, I have always found time and energy for people even at my lowest times, and that person has not changed,

She is still that person who cares and if anyone ever needed me I would be here no matter what crap is going on in my life!

I dont need to justify myself and I dont need to prove a damn thing only to myself and my children and i can wake up in the morning and hold my head high and be proud of my own achievements. So Thank you for your support and for caring.

Im now going to go and spend some quality time sorting out my life and my children.

We get one shot at this and I refuse to let some bitter and twisted person ruin that for me, I refuse to let the **** life has thrown at me hold me back anymore.

Ed Jones Your pathetic attempts and your threats of more harmful emails dont scare me anymore.

I am not ashamed neither am I going into hiding because of it. If you think people will stop talking to me and it will ruin my life, your wrong!!! really wrong !!! I know who my friends are and I recycle old paper so go to it!!

Thank you guys i love this place and I hope i never lose that

scknight

[tnt808]

Sue,

I am so sorry you are going through this right now. I hope things start to get better for you. Just please know that I am here for you if ever you need me. You're a great person and I am glad you are my friend!!

Take Care of You,

Tina

[susie]

oh my god i really didnt know all this has been going on im here for you anytime and i mean that god bless suexxx

[bluesparkle]

hi sue...

im not really sure what to say but just re inforce what everyone else has said... this will very soon be tomorrows gossip and be laid to rest...
and as for the teenage years... we are going through that teenage hell right now... and it is really hard to be patient and loving sometimes... but it will get better...
just want to say i am thinking of you... hang on in there it will get better
am sending posative vibes your way
take care of yourself
rach
x

[stace81]

Hi hun,
I too dont really know whats going on, but by the sounds of it its utterly out of order.
You keep smiling you will get through this and you have lots of suppot hun.
Big hugs for you hun take care.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

sford

[Granny Primark]

Hi sue,

You really dont deserve all this. I read the first one and emailed him back to tell him leave you alone.
The other ones have been deleted and not read.
You will never be on your own cus youve got true friends on here who will always love and support you you.

Pse take care of yourself.
Im here for you 24/7 if you need me

LYNN xx

[Dawn2]

Hi Sue
If I got any off the e-mails I havnt read them nor will I.
I class You as my friend that will not change. Thanks for ur support 2 night.
God Bless.
P.S I have spoken 2 my crisis team and they are going to contact my nutty doc and they are sending a support worker out to see me
Yours Dawn[8D]

[clickaway]

sorry I have been laying low lately but you know how it goes

but here's humungous hug my friend

((((sue))))

Ray