Eek
08-04-13, 12:36
I've been withdrawing from my medication for a week now and have not had more than three hours sleep in any one night, sometimes less more like an hour. I'm terrified it's going to make me mad or kill me. I don't feel like I'm ever going to have normal sleep again. I can't take any sleep aids not even valarian as they interact with my other meds so there is no respite. I gave in and took a diazepam today only to find that it interacts with all of my other meds, I can't believe the doctor prescribed it for me, it has major interactions with all three other meds, so now I'm scared about that.
The last couple of hours I've just been sobbing uncontrollably, my poor husband is at his wit's end with me. I don't know what to do, I don't know if it's lack of sleep, withdrawal symptoms - they can go on for four to six weeks with these meds (Zyprexa - olanzapine) or my anxiety doing this to me, but I feel like I'm just breaking down. I don't want to give in and go back on the meds I've come this far but it's looking like that's what I might have to do. I don't know how much more of this sleeplessness I can take, and I'm also still worrying about all my other problems like the night sweats, which are way worse at the moment, the treatment resistant thrush that I have which doesn't seem to be clearing up with the new treatment, my wonky periods that only seem to be getting worse. It's too much for me, i just don't know what to do any more.
The last couple of hours I've just been sobbing uncontrollably, my poor husband is at his wit's end with me. I don't know what to do, I don't know if it's lack of sleep, withdrawal symptoms - they can go on for four to six weeks with these meds (Zyprexa - olanzapine) or my anxiety doing this to me, but I feel like I'm just breaking down. I don't want to give in and go back on the meds I've come this far but it's looking like that's what I might have to do. I don't know how much more of this sleeplessness I can take, and I'm also still worrying about all my other problems like the night sweats, which are way worse at the moment, the treatment resistant thrush that I have which doesn't seem to be clearing up with the new treatment, my wonky periods that only seem to be getting worse. It's too much for me, i just don't know what to do any more.