Gypsycoblet
13-04-13, 04:27
Hello everyone, new to this site but not to anxiety! Im 26, a girly and hardly leave my house as there really is no point. In a previous life was a jittery but successful nqt then bam! Couldn't walk, couldn't see, couldn't sleep, couldn't function! Had MRI scans for brain tumours, MS, neurological problems etc, had balance tests, ENT tests, blood tests, ECGs before finally being diagnosed with GAD, depression and OCD. Had bouts of self harm (which I'm not advocating but helps me), suicidal thoughts and generally feel worthless as Iv studied do hard all my life to provide for my family and am now stuck on JSA and finding it hard to find let alone maintain a job. I'm on escitalopram 20 mg daily (sometimes feel like I could do with more but that's the max dose) have had cbt (a total of like (30 odd sessions if you add them up) and used to attend Mind. They were fantastic and I have been aweful lately not responding to them but TBH I think they've done all they can with me, they can't carry me forever and as self pitying as it sounds if I haven't learnt to cope by now I should stop using their resources. Errrrmm... So yeah there's my life story, sorry it's a bit long ! On the plus side looking forward to actually having contact with people and trying this 'socialising' thing, take care everyone xxx