Fergie1065
19-04-13, 21:09
Hey,
I'm new to this forum, my name's Ross and I'm only 22 years old and I have came across this forum several times when googling symptoms and such and it seems to have many people who are going through the same torture as me, known as anxiety.
i constantly think i'm dying. i'm in hospital every second week. i keep thinking my hearts going to stop, or somethings wrong with my lungs - there's something every day and it's really tearing me apart. i ust got out of hospital today as i was admitted for not sleeping for 6 days straight i was hallucinating and everything the worse experience of my life. i only slept after being fired with 80mg of librium and 40mg diazepam to basically knock me out - this got me 8 hours, although i still feel exhausted. i feel extremely confused and as if im gonna die at any time and its really upsetting me and my family, i spend every night crying over this.
my pdoc put me on 10mg of citalopram which i took on the friday, and thats when my inability to sleep started. i just couldnt drift off for thinking about sleep but i dont know if the citalopram has caused it? im scared incase its taken away my natural ability to sleep without being zombied, and i really dont want to have to rely on drugs to get a sleep every night. i really cant go through that again and really hope i can sleep tonight.
fearing death is my main concern. i also CONSTANTLY focus on my breathing, its as if i cant get it out my mind. im always thiinking breath in breath out breath in breath out and that also makes it virtually impossible.
its really destorying me and its made me feel as if its never going to cure and my lifes over at a young age. doctors really dont seem to care when you're admitted with an anxiety related issue they make u feel like ur wasting their time to the point ur scared to go back.
does anyone here have health anxiety as bad as this? do any of you focus on your breathing constantly? i think the only people that understand how emotionally torturing anxiety is are those that experience it themselves which is why i'm glad to have joined this forum.
another thing is i turned to drink as a temporary cure for anxiety so i was drinking on top of the citalopram. i was thinking of having a few tonight to see if it aids my sleep, but ive already have 40mg librium today so im not sure what the effects are
sorry for the massive post, ive just become so frustrated and upset and i really need somewhere else to turn
thanks in advance to anyone who can reply or offer advice
I'm new to this forum, my name's Ross and I'm only 22 years old and I have came across this forum several times when googling symptoms and such and it seems to have many people who are going through the same torture as me, known as anxiety.
i constantly think i'm dying. i'm in hospital every second week. i keep thinking my hearts going to stop, or somethings wrong with my lungs - there's something every day and it's really tearing me apart. i ust got out of hospital today as i was admitted for not sleeping for 6 days straight i was hallucinating and everything the worse experience of my life. i only slept after being fired with 80mg of librium and 40mg diazepam to basically knock me out - this got me 8 hours, although i still feel exhausted. i feel extremely confused and as if im gonna die at any time and its really upsetting me and my family, i spend every night crying over this.
my pdoc put me on 10mg of citalopram which i took on the friday, and thats when my inability to sleep started. i just couldnt drift off for thinking about sleep but i dont know if the citalopram has caused it? im scared incase its taken away my natural ability to sleep without being zombied, and i really dont want to have to rely on drugs to get a sleep every night. i really cant go through that again and really hope i can sleep tonight.
fearing death is my main concern. i also CONSTANTLY focus on my breathing, its as if i cant get it out my mind. im always thiinking breath in breath out breath in breath out and that also makes it virtually impossible.
its really destorying me and its made me feel as if its never going to cure and my lifes over at a young age. doctors really dont seem to care when you're admitted with an anxiety related issue they make u feel like ur wasting their time to the point ur scared to go back.
does anyone here have health anxiety as bad as this? do any of you focus on your breathing constantly? i think the only people that understand how emotionally torturing anxiety is are those that experience it themselves which is why i'm glad to have joined this forum.
another thing is i turned to drink as a temporary cure for anxiety so i was drinking on top of the citalopram. i was thinking of having a few tonight to see if it aids my sleep, but ive already have 40mg librium today so im not sure what the effects are
sorry for the massive post, ive just become so frustrated and upset and i really need somewhere else to turn
thanks in advance to anyone who can reply or offer advice