lifesfighter92
21-04-13, 13:04
Hi , i am a new member on here and i hope many of you can relate to my story. I am Joe and im 20, The reason i have signed up here is because i am yet to meet anybody or speak to anybody with the same anxiety disorder as me , simply put , nobody who hasnt got a disorder like this knows what it is like or understands the day to day struggle we have.
I have given up trying to explain what i was born with to any of my close family or the very few friends that i have so i have bottled it up and hid it away from them and just smile and carry on when around them, but inside , i feel the pain every day and have great amount of fear about most things in life. I have constant anxiety and find myself worrying about something 24/7.
I was initially diagnosed with Generalized anxiety disorder in december 2009 after a string of visits to my gp about my anxiety which was manifested itself as health anxiety, social anxiety ,agoraphobia and a string of extremely frightful panic attacks , i was 17 at this time but i had experienced anxiety for as long as i could remember which led my GP (who is excellent and hugely understanding) to believe that i had this anxiety disorder from birth , which i agree with.
I was then put on citalopram due to how desperate i was and i saw a huge improvement in a short space of time , although it had helped me , the citalopram gave me a false sense of confidence and i began to have a careless attitude , i was going out drinking , making FALSE friends with lots of people and getting into trouble , which is nothing like me at all , i was on citalopram for 20 months and i believe that it was the wrong thing to do , it was a spur of the moment thing and should have been further thought through with my gp , but at the time i was extremely desperate and wanted a quick solution to a long term problem.
When i came off citalopram in november 2011 i was ok for 2 months but then saw a decline in my confidence and the anxiety slowly weened its way back into my life , as it came back i withdrew myself from the social pipeline and went back as off april 2012 i was back to where i was before , no friends , no confidence , unable to trust anyone and a loathing for the social scene.
Despite my anxiety , my main hobby is boxing and i have been a boxer for 4 years , this lessens the effects of my anxiety while i am training but it isnt enough ,i am very fit and i also have a good job whilst studying sport and have a lot to be happy about in life , but this just proves that anxiety is an illness and not something we can just snap out of.
Over the last 6 months my anxiety has gotten worse and it has mostly manifested itself as health anxiety , i have managed to dignose myself with nearly every known serious illness in the last 6 month due to slight symptoms , and it has also shown up as social anxiety and i havnt been out for 6 months , i am now back to how i was before and the only escape i get is in the boxing gym , i hope you sympathise with my story and can help me , thankyou very much for reading ,
Joe x
I have given up trying to explain what i was born with to any of my close family or the very few friends that i have so i have bottled it up and hid it away from them and just smile and carry on when around them, but inside , i feel the pain every day and have great amount of fear about most things in life. I have constant anxiety and find myself worrying about something 24/7.
I was initially diagnosed with Generalized anxiety disorder in december 2009 after a string of visits to my gp about my anxiety which was manifested itself as health anxiety, social anxiety ,agoraphobia and a string of extremely frightful panic attacks , i was 17 at this time but i had experienced anxiety for as long as i could remember which led my GP (who is excellent and hugely understanding) to believe that i had this anxiety disorder from birth , which i agree with.
I was then put on citalopram due to how desperate i was and i saw a huge improvement in a short space of time , although it had helped me , the citalopram gave me a false sense of confidence and i began to have a careless attitude , i was going out drinking , making FALSE friends with lots of people and getting into trouble , which is nothing like me at all , i was on citalopram for 20 months and i believe that it was the wrong thing to do , it was a spur of the moment thing and should have been further thought through with my gp , but at the time i was extremely desperate and wanted a quick solution to a long term problem.
When i came off citalopram in november 2011 i was ok for 2 months but then saw a decline in my confidence and the anxiety slowly weened its way back into my life , as it came back i withdrew myself from the social pipeline and went back as off april 2012 i was back to where i was before , no friends , no confidence , unable to trust anyone and a loathing for the social scene.
Despite my anxiety , my main hobby is boxing and i have been a boxer for 4 years , this lessens the effects of my anxiety while i am training but it isnt enough ,i am very fit and i also have a good job whilst studying sport and have a lot to be happy about in life , but this just proves that anxiety is an illness and not something we can just snap out of.
Over the last 6 months my anxiety has gotten worse and it has mostly manifested itself as health anxiety , i have managed to dignose myself with nearly every known serious illness in the last 6 month due to slight symptoms , and it has also shown up as social anxiety and i havnt been out for 6 months , i am now back to how i was before and the only escape i get is in the boxing gym , i hope you sympathise with my story and can help me , thankyou very much for reading ,
Joe x