loopyloulou
22-04-13, 11:13
hi everyone, I'm new to this site as a member but have visited regularly over the last 3 months whilst living with daily HA!
I've always had health anxiety and been a hypochondriac but never experienced ongoing symptoms from anxiety. This time I've had it all- dizziness, off balance, feeling spacey/not quite there, muscle buzzing, twitching, tightness, sensitive to light, constant lower back pain etc etc etc (I won't bore you). I basically convinced myself (as we do) that I had MS or worse and literally let this fear consume me to the extent that I was a TOTAL state.
My fear was out of control, I was crying all the time, constantly googling, couldn't look at my children without breaking down at the thought of not being there for them, putting my marriage under HUGE pressure and depending on my own parents.
I've seen countless GP's who all said it was anxiety and even saw a nuerologist privately (GP wouldn't refer) who said I was fine nuerologically. I was doing much better after that for a couple of weeks but recently the HA has been sneaking back in...
Every time I get a buzzing in my foot, feel spacey or can't think clearly or even feel that I have a hand tremor, it sends me into a panic! When oh when will I just be able to ignore this and get on with my life? Will these weird sensations ever leave me? It's as though the HA programme is constantly running in my mind whatever I'm doing! I feel so miserable and lifeless and feel so envious of others who don't feel like this. I tell myself I'm being stupid but the other part of me thinks what if? what if? I just want to feel normal again!!
I've always had health anxiety and been a hypochondriac but never experienced ongoing symptoms from anxiety. This time I've had it all- dizziness, off balance, feeling spacey/not quite there, muscle buzzing, twitching, tightness, sensitive to light, constant lower back pain etc etc etc (I won't bore you). I basically convinced myself (as we do) that I had MS or worse and literally let this fear consume me to the extent that I was a TOTAL state.
My fear was out of control, I was crying all the time, constantly googling, couldn't look at my children without breaking down at the thought of not being there for them, putting my marriage under HUGE pressure and depending on my own parents.
I've seen countless GP's who all said it was anxiety and even saw a nuerologist privately (GP wouldn't refer) who said I was fine nuerologically. I was doing much better after that for a couple of weeks but recently the HA has been sneaking back in...
Every time I get a buzzing in my foot, feel spacey or can't think clearly or even feel that I have a hand tremor, it sends me into a panic! When oh when will I just be able to ignore this and get on with my life? Will these weird sensations ever leave me? It's as though the HA programme is constantly running in my mind whatever I'm doing! I feel so miserable and lifeless and feel so envious of others who don't feel like this. I tell myself I'm being stupid but the other part of me thinks what if? what if? I just want to feel normal again!!