Caramel
02-05-13, 13:13
Hey everyone,
Well, I'm back again because I know you guys are the only people who truely understand.:)
I have suffered with GAD and panic attacks most of my life - there was never any trigger for it, it just got worse and worse as the years went on.
It has now got to the point where, back in August, I had to give up my job as a teacher, because the anxiety meant I couldn't go on courses or take the kids out on trips etc.
I can get out and about, but I have to work my way up to it, and if I ever try and make plans I find it virtually impossible to do them. Because of this, I haven't been able to find myself a job because I don't feel I'm reliable enough to do it - I don't think I would even get to an interview for a start!
As time has gone on, I can feel myself getting worse and worse - I'm on my own all day while my husband works, and of course, my mind is working overtime. For example, at the moment I can't stop obsessing because I've been having a problem with a tooth, but the dentist can't find anything wrong. He thinks it may be anxiety-related (!) and has referred me to the hospital, which is miles away. I can't stop thinking about the stupid tooth and all I can think about is the hospital visit and how on earth I'm going to do it. I had the dentist this morning, which is literally 2 minutes up the road, but I was up the entire night with horrendous panic attacks just because of it.
I can't seem to get a grip on anything and I'm so scared. I can't eat properly because the anxiety makes me feel sick, which makes me feel worse and so weak. I feel like I'm trapped in a vicious circle I can't get out of.:weep:
Well, I'm back again because I know you guys are the only people who truely understand.:)
I have suffered with GAD and panic attacks most of my life - there was never any trigger for it, it just got worse and worse as the years went on.
It has now got to the point where, back in August, I had to give up my job as a teacher, because the anxiety meant I couldn't go on courses or take the kids out on trips etc.
I can get out and about, but I have to work my way up to it, and if I ever try and make plans I find it virtually impossible to do them. Because of this, I haven't been able to find myself a job because I don't feel I'm reliable enough to do it - I don't think I would even get to an interview for a start!
As time has gone on, I can feel myself getting worse and worse - I'm on my own all day while my husband works, and of course, my mind is working overtime. For example, at the moment I can't stop obsessing because I've been having a problem with a tooth, but the dentist can't find anything wrong. He thinks it may be anxiety-related (!) and has referred me to the hospital, which is miles away. I can't stop thinking about the stupid tooth and all I can think about is the hospital visit and how on earth I'm going to do it. I had the dentist this morning, which is literally 2 minutes up the road, but I was up the entire night with horrendous panic attacks just because of it.
I can't seem to get a grip on anything and I'm so scared. I can't eat properly because the anxiety makes me feel sick, which makes me feel worse and so weak. I feel like I'm trapped in a vicious circle I can't get out of.:weep: