samtheman
04-05-13, 19:12
I've been pretty much anxiety free for a good number of years now, well I say anxiety free I think I was living in my comfort zone but now even my comfort zone is helping.
I was made redundant at the start of last year and with all that free time on my hands and no routine I was slipping back to depression and anxiety so I needed a job. Found one applied and got called for an interview, got offered the job on the spot so accepted things were looking up, that was April 2012.
First day I found out i'd been had, the job I accepted was gone or rather never existed, but this other job was available. Its clear now why they never advertised it as no one would take it but I couldn't refuse as I'd lose my benefits, but this is the start of the nightmare.
I won't go into all the details of it but it has brought my anxiety back in full force along with all the other symptoms, the heart palpitations which I was glad to see the back of are back, I have the old IBS and diarrhea attacks back, I have trouble sleeping again and often have that dream like state I forget its name depersonalisation? constant heart burn, and I just feel constantly on edge again.
I did see my doctor about it when I started having these symptoms back in September last year and his advice was to speak to the HR department about my stress etc which I did do but it was brushed under the carpet.
I am just at the end of my tether with this and its on my mind constantly, even when I sleep I dream about work and how much I hate that place, its almost like PTSD. I've thrown everything but the kitchen sick at trying to find another job ever since I started but have gotten know where.
I am just mentally shattered and drained from stress, anxiety, job hunting, depression and I can't see an end in sight.
Can anyone offer any advice?
I was made redundant at the start of last year and with all that free time on my hands and no routine I was slipping back to depression and anxiety so I needed a job. Found one applied and got called for an interview, got offered the job on the spot so accepted things were looking up, that was April 2012.
First day I found out i'd been had, the job I accepted was gone or rather never existed, but this other job was available. Its clear now why they never advertised it as no one would take it but I couldn't refuse as I'd lose my benefits, but this is the start of the nightmare.
I won't go into all the details of it but it has brought my anxiety back in full force along with all the other symptoms, the heart palpitations which I was glad to see the back of are back, I have the old IBS and diarrhea attacks back, I have trouble sleeping again and often have that dream like state I forget its name depersonalisation? constant heart burn, and I just feel constantly on edge again.
I did see my doctor about it when I started having these symptoms back in September last year and his advice was to speak to the HR department about my stress etc which I did do but it was brushed under the carpet.
I am just at the end of my tether with this and its on my mind constantly, even when I sleep I dream about work and how much I hate that place, its almost like PTSD. I've thrown everything but the kitchen sick at trying to find another job ever since I started but have gotten know where.
I am just mentally shattered and drained from stress, anxiety, job hunting, depression and I can't see an end in sight.
Can anyone offer any advice?