Col
06-05-13, 21:12
Hi guys sorry I've not been on for a while. x
Well I did a thread not too long ago almost complaining how down I felt about being newly pregnant and about a week later I had what I think is the worst thing that's ever happend to me in my entire 32 years of existence.
I've suffered with panic for 2 years now and I've never had it before but since I've been a panic attack sufferer I hate clinical environments on a good day.
So about a week after I posted - pregnant and feeling really upset thread - my world nearly collapsed before me.
I woke up and went to the toilet and at this time I'd been hurrendously ill anyway, in bed for most of Easter .... So I went to the toilet it was 6:30am ish got back in bed and suddenly a funny sensation so I stood up felt and ere was blood I ran to the toilet shouting to my husband "I'm loosing my baby." sat on the loo blood and what I thought was the baby but a clot????? Hubby called an ambulance and like I said about my clinical phobia I was in a right state! I couldn't speak I was crying , I felt faint the 999 people wouldn't let me dri k water until the ambulance came? MY GOD - it was nothing other than hurrendously scary!!!!!!
Apparently bleeding isn't as rare BUT I'm sure most will understand with the stress of that sometimes now I can't focus my panic has slightly returned and also the day after the incident I had a massive migraine first thing in the morning! And again that's a massive panic attack trigger for me! So a few weeks on I'm nealy 12 weeks hurray BUT I'm still so hyper sensitive to the way I feel, the way things look etc I sometimes can't sleep in fear I wake up and it happens again.
Solooking back at my origional post I'm mad at myself for ever posting I know I was just worried etc but really at that time I had nothing to really worry about, as opposed to now! I've already got 2 beautiful kids and now I can't wait and pray to GOD it all works out in the end and I don't have anymore scares. I don't think I can cope tbh.
Fingers and toes crossed!
Takecare everyone XXX
Well I did a thread not too long ago almost complaining how down I felt about being newly pregnant and about a week later I had what I think is the worst thing that's ever happend to me in my entire 32 years of existence.
I've suffered with panic for 2 years now and I've never had it before but since I've been a panic attack sufferer I hate clinical environments on a good day.
So about a week after I posted - pregnant and feeling really upset thread - my world nearly collapsed before me.
I woke up and went to the toilet and at this time I'd been hurrendously ill anyway, in bed for most of Easter .... So I went to the toilet it was 6:30am ish got back in bed and suddenly a funny sensation so I stood up felt and ere was blood I ran to the toilet shouting to my husband "I'm loosing my baby." sat on the loo blood and what I thought was the baby but a clot????? Hubby called an ambulance and like I said about my clinical phobia I was in a right state! I couldn't speak I was crying , I felt faint the 999 people wouldn't let me dri k water until the ambulance came? MY GOD - it was nothing other than hurrendously scary!!!!!!
Apparently bleeding isn't as rare BUT I'm sure most will understand with the stress of that sometimes now I can't focus my panic has slightly returned and also the day after the incident I had a massive migraine first thing in the morning! And again that's a massive panic attack trigger for me! So a few weeks on I'm nealy 12 weeks hurray BUT I'm still so hyper sensitive to the way I feel, the way things look etc I sometimes can't sleep in fear I wake up and it happens again.
Solooking back at my origional post I'm mad at myself for ever posting I know I was just worried etc but really at that time I had nothing to really worry about, as opposed to now! I've already got 2 beautiful kids and now I can't wait and pray to GOD it all works out in the end and I don't have anymore scares. I don't think I can cope tbh.
Fingers and toes crossed!
Takecare everyone XXX