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26-09-06, 23:51
A few weeks ago I put my hand up to meets some fellow photo people to meet up at Kew Gardens in west London.
I've met most of these peeps before and they're great so wanted to do it, BUT I got stressed out about actually getting there in the morning. I only live an hour away but I find mornings almost impossible and have been having a lot of insomnia lately.
So I comprimised and got there at 1.15 after telling the organiser I get insomnia and so avoiding the anxiety revelation and still be truthful!
We had a great afternoon there and once I had met up, my anxieties receded. They came on again as soon as people were planning to leave, and once on my own on unfamiliar train tracks I was a total wreck thinking I could not manage the one mile drive home from the station.
I eased up as the train neared my home town and drove back here no problem.
That night I took no sleeping pills and had plenty of sleep. However the next day I just freaked, in a permamant cold sweat all day with little energy. I *had* to go out for some milk at 8pm and once I stepped outside the front door that was easy contrary to what I had thought 2 minutes beforehand.
My anxiety is rooted in being seperated from my family for a few weeks when very young, and so yearn for safe company even now. I really needed to be with these friends last saturday and I found out a lot about myself again.
There is a similar meet in Bristol in two weeks and I have said yes to that too. That will involve a hotel and will be a tougher challenge, but I know I will survive!
Everyone can do this, but its bloody hard!
Ray
http://www.anxietyrelease.org.uk/
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
~Mark Sanders and Tia Sillers
I've met most of these peeps before and they're great so wanted to do it, BUT I got stressed out about actually getting there in the morning. I only live an hour away but I find mornings almost impossible and have been having a lot of insomnia lately.
So I comprimised and got there at 1.15 after telling the organiser I get insomnia and so avoiding the anxiety revelation and still be truthful!
We had a great afternoon there and once I had met up, my anxieties receded. They came on again as soon as people were planning to leave, and once on my own on unfamiliar train tracks I was a total wreck thinking I could not manage the one mile drive home from the station.
I eased up as the train neared my home town and drove back here no problem.
That night I took no sleeping pills and had plenty of sleep. However the next day I just freaked, in a permamant cold sweat all day with little energy. I *had* to go out for some milk at 8pm and once I stepped outside the front door that was easy contrary to what I had thought 2 minutes beforehand.
My anxiety is rooted in being seperated from my family for a few weeks when very young, and so yearn for safe company even now. I really needed to be with these friends last saturday and I found out a lot about myself again.
There is a similar meet in Bristol in two weeks and I have said yes to that too. That will involve a hotel and will be a tougher challenge, but I know I will survive!
Everyone can do this, but its bloody hard!
Ray
http://www.anxietyrelease.org.uk/
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance, I hope you dance.
~Mark Sanders and Tia Sillers