Honeynut
12-05-13, 21:28
I spend most of my days finding things wrong with me on google. I am not overweight, I have a fine bmi but I don't have the best diet and because I get panic attacks being in public spaces, the only excercise I can really get done is simple walking or very light work outs in my bedroom so because of this, I am convinced I am going to die.
I am always finding things wrong with me, I never feel 100% and I know anxiety gives you a lot of symptoms but I just feel like there's something deeper wrong with me. Lately, I've had a lot of things wrong from having a viral infection, tonsilitis, a rash coming up on my chest and face and I just feel as if these are all a sign of something being wrong. I am extremely panicked about my health and as my mum had a cancerous lump in her breast when she was my age, I am constantly worried about that happening to me too.
I know googling is bad but I sometimes think well if I look up this ache then it might reassure me that nothing is wrong but it's always the opposite, it always tells me it's something deadly. Cancer seems to be the thing I worry about most and I just don't know how to control it anymore. My parents get angry and shout at me for being worried all the time, I can't help it though and I just want to be able to go one day without feeling like there's something wrong with me
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I am always finding things wrong with me, I never feel 100% and I know anxiety gives you a lot of symptoms but I just feel like there's something deeper wrong with me. Lately, I've had a lot of things wrong from having a viral infection, tonsilitis, a rash coming up on my chest and face and I just feel as if these are all a sign of something being wrong. I am extremely panicked about my health and as my mum had a cancerous lump in her breast when she was my age, I am constantly worried about that happening to me too.
I know googling is bad but I sometimes think well if I look up this ache then it might reassure me that nothing is wrong but it's always the opposite, it always tells me it's something deadly. Cancer seems to be the thing I worry about most and I just don't know how to control it anymore. My parents get angry and shout at me for being worried all the time, I can't help it though and I just want to be able to go one day without feeling like there's something wrong with me
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