NE21 worrier
15-05-13, 12:22
Hello everyone,
I would like to start a fresh thread on the topic of my lack of routine. I would admit myself that mine is atrocious.
For e.g. Yesterday and today, I have set reasonable morning alarms on my mobile phone so that I can look to achieve something with my day. I guess one of the problems is that my mobile phone lives under my pillow at night - this is to ensure the alarm will definitely wake me up. However, this also makes it easy to turn off and turn over for some more shut-eye. This has happened for the last two days and on several occasions before that.
Now, the last time I was signed off work and found myself doing this, I returned to work prematurely - an undeniable mistake - since, if anything, I think my lack of routine, as well as being laziness on my part, is part of the problem and down to a general lack of self-esteem and self-worth.
This lack of routine and self-esteem contributes to my anxiety as I generally get panic attacks if I am going somewhere I have not been before, or if I am doing something I haven't done before. I just don't believe that I will be able to do it if I've never done it before.
Moreover, even when I am at work, my morning routine was very basic and not really much improved from my student days. I'd roll out of bed, splash water on my face, throw some clothes on, down a cup of tea (made by mum), pick up my lunch (again made by mum), and head out of the car. Often I won't even brush my teeth as I've found occasionally that this makes me gag, sometimes I will use mouthwash instead if I remember. Just reading that back sounds ridiculous.
I would dearly like to improve this aspect of my life. I feel really lazy and useless when I have wasted my time in my room on the internet or watching television.
Thanks for reading,
Peter
I would like to start a fresh thread on the topic of my lack of routine. I would admit myself that mine is atrocious.
For e.g. Yesterday and today, I have set reasonable morning alarms on my mobile phone so that I can look to achieve something with my day. I guess one of the problems is that my mobile phone lives under my pillow at night - this is to ensure the alarm will definitely wake me up. However, this also makes it easy to turn off and turn over for some more shut-eye. This has happened for the last two days and on several occasions before that.
Now, the last time I was signed off work and found myself doing this, I returned to work prematurely - an undeniable mistake - since, if anything, I think my lack of routine, as well as being laziness on my part, is part of the problem and down to a general lack of self-esteem and self-worth.
This lack of routine and self-esteem contributes to my anxiety as I generally get panic attacks if I am going somewhere I have not been before, or if I am doing something I haven't done before. I just don't believe that I will be able to do it if I've never done it before.
Moreover, even when I am at work, my morning routine was very basic and not really much improved from my student days. I'd roll out of bed, splash water on my face, throw some clothes on, down a cup of tea (made by mum), pick up my lunch (again made by mum), and head out of the car. Often I won't even brush my teeth as I've found occasionally that this makes me gag, sometimes I will use mouthwash instead if I remember. Just reading that back sounds ridiculous.
I would dearly like to improve this aspect of my life. I feel really lazy and useless when I have wasted my time in my room on the internet or watching television.
Thanks for reading,
Peter