lazaru
28-05-13, 22:37
Im back to the forum after many years of managing but this time things seem really odd. Ive developed what appears to be quite a bad attachment disorder whereby i get very upset when a trusted or safe person is away. ive always battled with this somewhat but noticed recently that i was beginning to panic even if the person was nearby, but in a situation where I couldnt immediately speak to or see them.
out of this i also have begun to ruminate on the idea that no one can actually help me, be it my parents, friends or medical professionals. this is really freaking me out and making me feel quite helpless at times, and is made almost unbearable when in the throws of panic.
i do suffer from pure o OCD but Ive never had thoughts like this
Ive been on 150mg of venlafaxine for ages, but a recent upping to 187.5mg seems to have made things worse.
ive even missed a few psych sessions as i had a bad attack in the waiting room recently and felt scared and unsafe
has anyone else experienced anything like this?
its a first for me and its making recovery/coping seem impossible:weep:
*thinking about this last night, it all started when i had a panic attack with my safe person around. scared me into thinking that if they couldnt help me, who can.*
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ps i recently had to abandon a holiday as i was getting on the airport coach because i started to panic and get very upset, even though i was with my mum, as i didnt feel that she would really be able to help me if things got bad
out of this i also have begun to ruminate on the idea that no one can actually help me, be it my parents, friends or medical professionals. this is really freaking me out and making me feel quite helpless at times, and is made almost unbearable when in the throws of panic.
i do suffer from pure o OCD but Ive never had thoughts like this
Ive been on 150mg of venlafaxine for ages, but a recent upping to 187.5mg seems to have made things worse.
ive even missed a few psych sessions as i had a bad attack in the waiting room recently and felt scared and unsafe
has anyone else experienced anything like this?
its a first for me and its making recovery/coping seem impossible:weep:
*thinking about this last night, it all started when i had a panic attack with my safe person around. scared me into thinking that if they couldnt help me, who can.*
---------- Post added at 22:37 ---------- Previous post was at 22:34 ----------
ps i recently had to abandon a holiday as i was getting on the airport coach because i started to panic and get very upset, even though i was with my mum, as i didnt feel that she would really be able to help me if things got bad