Kay8803
29-05-13, 13:11
Hey,
I've been suffering with anxiety disorder since June of last year. I'm only 24 and over the years have had some pretty bad things to deal with. My mum got cancer ( has been cured), I lost my baby at 21 weeks pregnant, my mum had a still born baby, had a lot of hospital stays with my mum due to her being of ill health. I am the eldest of my brother and sisters so have always taken charge of the situation and looked after everyone. I mean when I had to have induced labour that lasted 14 hours with my angel baby I wouldn't let family come with me as I did not want them to go through such turmoil. Loosing my baby is something that has killed me everyday since it happend and I have a lot of issues with what happend. I've always been able to get on with my like and let the bad things go but in June last year my grandad got cancer in the mouth. That was it I couldn't leave the house, sleep, eat anything. Visited the doctors as I was convincied I had cancer in my neck. I went on beat blockers for 6 weeks but hated being on medication. I left my ex partner as he was no help to me and I felt that he made my situation worse. My grandad got over his cancer and my anxiety seemed to ease. Unfortunately my grandad a cancer came back and in April this year he passed away. I now feel anxious pretty much all the te but try to ignore it. I have a lot of issues with my grandad passing as I wasn't there when he died and felt I should have been, I also didn't visit that often as I've moved away and getting there was not easy. Whenever I'm alone it all starts the anxious feeling, now I think I've got cancer in my jaw like my grandad which I no is untrue but I can't convince myself of that. It's causing me to get headaches, not sleep properly, awful to, upset stomache, and I no my mind is making me feel things that aren't there. Really would love your advice and opinions and also just an understanding person :-) xxx
I've been suffering with anxiety disorder since June of last year. I'm only 24 and over the years have had some pretty bad things to deal with. My mum got cancer ( has been cured), I lost my baby at 21 weeks pregnant, my mum had a still born baby, had a lot of hospital stays with my mum due to her being of ill health. I am the eldest of my brother and sisters so have always taken charge of the situation and looked after everyone. I mean when I had to have induced labour that lasted 14 hours with my angel baby I wouldn't let family come with me as I did not want them to go through such turmoil. Loosing my baby is something that has killed me everyday since it happend and I have a lot of issues with what happend. I've always been able to get on with my like and let the bad things go but in June last year my grandad got cancer in the mouth. That was it I couldn't leave the house, sleep, eat anything. Visited the doctors as I was convincied I had cancer in my neck. I went on beat blockers for 6 weeks but hated being on medication. I left my ex partner as he was no help to me and I felt that he made my situation worse. My grandad got over his cancer and my anxiety seemed to ease. Unfortunately my grandad a cancer came back and in April this year he passed away. I now feel anxious pretty much all the te but try to ignore it. I have a lot of issues with my grandad passing as I wasn't there when he died and felt I should have been, I also didn't visit that often as I've moved away and getting there was not easy. Whenever I'm alone it all starts the anxious feeling, now I think I've got cancer in my jaw like my grandad which I no is untrue but I can't convince myself of that. It's causing me to get headaches, not sleep properly, awful to, upset stomache, and I no my mind is making me feel things that aren't there. Really would love your advice and opinions and also just an understanding person :-) xxx