jamie1125
01-06-13, 04:33
Hi everyone. I am 34 years old. Have a great husband and 2 great kids. I used to go out and do a lot of things but the past 5 years my life has stopped. I am afraid of having a heart attack. It is all I think about. My dad died at the very young age of 37 of a heart attack. My boyfriend died a few years later at the age of 30 of a blood clot that went to his heart. Sooo...needless to say...I am a little bit of a hypochondriac.
I have had numerous tests - including ekg's, sonograms on my heart, and have worn a monitor twice and it all comes back ok. My bp is a little high at times but it is normally anxiety causing it. Also, my cholestoral is good. I have damaged muscles in my left shoulder that causes a lot of pain and numbness on my left side and into my face. That doesn't help with my fears. I am afraid to run, ride a bike, go on a roller coaster or do anything else that may get my heart beating fast because I am afraid I will die. I have muscle spasms in my back and chest and I am convinced these are mini heart attacks. I am on anxiety meds and bp meds. I have preeclampsia with my youngest child and caused me to have high bp. I am better than I was - believe it or not. For about a year I couldn't drive and I barely left my house. going out to eat or to a school function for my kids was out of the question because I was afraid of dying there. I just want to stop being afraid. I want my life back. I know that the chances of me having a heart attack at a young age are slim - yet I still live in constant fear. Also I should tell you that my dad is the ONLY person in my very large family that died of a heart attack. His parents and siblings and my mom's family have never had heart problems of any kind. Still - I worry constantly. sorry this is so long. Thank you for reading.
I have had numerous tests - including ekg's, sonograms on my heart, and have worn a monitor twice and it all comes back ok. My bp is a little high at times but it is normally anxiety causing it. Also, my cholestoral is good. I have damaged muscles in my left shoulder that causes a lot of pain and numbness on my left side and into my face. That doesn't help with my fears. I am afraid to run, ride a bike, go on a roller coaster or do anything else that may get my heart beating fast because I am afraid I will die. I have muscle spasms in my back and chest and I am convinced these are mini heart attacks. I am on anxiety meds and bp meds. I have preeclampsia with my youngest child and caused me to have high bp. I am better than I was - believe it or not. For about a year I couldn't drive and I barely left my house. going out to eat or to a school function for my kids was out of the question because I was afraid of dying there. I just want to stop being afraid. I want my life back. I know that the chances of me having a heart attack at a young age are slim - yet I still live in constant fear. Also I should tell you that my dad is the ONLY person in my very large family that died of a heart attack. His parents and siblings and my mom's family have never had heart problems of any kind. Still - I worry constantly. sorry this is so long. Thank you for reading.