greg123
01-06-13, 22:16
Hi my name is Greg and I'm from the UK, I have been suffering with panic attacks and intrusive thoughts for a while. The other day I had a bad panic attack I think. I'll explain the panic attack if you don't mind and then hopefully get some feedback on it as it's kind of got me worried that I'm going crazy.
I went to the beach with my family, I felt fine, I didn't feel panicky or worried I was having a good day. We were all sat around this table eating and all of a sudden I looked over at my sister and it felt like I didn't recognize her and as soon as that happened a bolt of anxiety shot through me and obviously I kept looking over at her to see if I could recognize her but I couldn't. It was like I knew who she was but it was like it was the first time I'd ever seen her, if that makes sense?
I started panicking inside, my thoughts were just rolling off each other, then I started thinking about where I am, that I am on a planet in a universe and it started making me panic. All my family looked unfamiliar, for about 2 hours the whole concept of existence seemed bizarre. Even when I looked at the sky I'd start thinking about what was beyond the sky, a whole universe and to be honest it made me want to curl up in a ball. I don't know why it scared me so much but it was terror.
Me and my sister then had to drive home with my nieces and nephews and it was a very weird experience. It felt like I was going insane, I knew everything I was thinking was irrational and I was trying desperately to get it off my mind but I couldn't and these thoughts about existence just wouldn't stop coming and neither would the anxiety but on the outside I looked fine, I don't think anyone even noticed I was panicking apart from my Mum asking me why i'm fidgeting so much.
In the car on the way home I felt very surreal, life didn't look unreal and I didn't feel unreal (that's why i'm not sure if it's deprersonalization) I just felt paper thin, like I was nothing and absolutely everything felt meaningless, even words in songs.....
I'm not to sure what this was but it really scared me, it hasn't been as bad since but I do get the odd moment where I suddenly realize i'm alive and I start to panic but it subsides if I do something to take my mind off it.
Does anyone have any ideas?
Thanks
I went to the beach with my family, I felt fine, I didn't feel panicky or worried I was having a good day. We were all sat around this table eating and all of a sudden I looked over at my sister and it felt like I didn't recognize her and as soon as that happened a bolt of anxiety shot through me and obviously I kept looking over at her to see if I could recognize her but I couldn't. It was like I knew who she was but it was like it was the first time I'd ever seen her, if that makes sense?
I started panicking inside, my thoughts were just rolling off each other, then I started thinking about where I am, that I am on a planet in a universe and it started making me panic. All my family looked unfamiliar, for about 2 hours the whole concept of existence seemed bizarre. Even when I looked at the sky I'd start thinking about what was beyond the sky, a whole universe and to be honest it made me want to curl up in a ball. I don't know why it scared me so much but it was terror.
Me and my sister then had to drive home with my nieces and nephews and it was a very weird experience. It felt like I was going insane, I knew everything I was thinking was irrational and I was trying desperately to get it off my mind but I couldn't and these thoughts about existence just wouldn't stop coming and neither would the anxiety but on the outside I looked fine, I don't think anyone even noticed I was panicking apart from my Mum asking me why i'm fidgeting so much.
In the car on the way home I felt very surreal, life didn't look unreal and I didn't feel unreal (that's why i'm not sure if it's deprersonalization) I just felt paper thin, like I was nothing and absolutely everything felt meaningless, even words in songs.....
I'm not to sure what this was but it really scared me, it hasn't been as bad since but I do get the odd moment where I suddenly realize i'm alive and I start to panic but it subsides if I do something to take my mind off it.
Does anyone have any ideas?
Thanks