fran43
02-10-06, 15:57
Is it just me, I think this therapy will be wasted and also cost a lot of money. I did tell her that the book she gave me to read gave me no useful information that I did not know and/or read about. I have ready quite a lot of CBT books/Claire Weeks but I cant get to grips with the coping mechanisms however hard I try. I see the logical but when put into practice it goes to pieces.
I have felt down for so many days. Whether it is my GP has changed my anti-depressant from Mirtazipine to Dosulepin (75mg for first week, 150mg for the second). No reduction was suggested to withdraw the Mirtzapine slowly considering I was taking the highest dose.
Same old story, I am fed up with feeling unreal and life getting too much. I have started driving to the supermarket on my own, to the library etc. Driving seems the only "normal" thing.
As soon as I walk my legs feel so heavy and like someone has placed a backpag full of bricks in it. My back muscles contract really badly that I end up putting ralgex on them but it brings little relief.
I phoned work today as they sent me a Criminal Bureau Records form as I am a legal advisor and work with young children. It needed renewing for another three years. I laughed when I said I wasn't going anyway and they would have me for at least another few years.
Trouble is being/talking on the phone is one thing. Going back to work would be near impossible because of the detailed knowledge/concentration needed. They are not the greatest of employers. Three years ago I had a form of breakdown and went into the Priory for 3 weeks and they almost dismissed me for having a mental illness. Therefore I feel far more pressure to keep this depression/anxiety order under wraps.
Anyway, yet again I have vented too much but I am so wracked off.
Take care of yourself and each other,
Love Fran XX
I have felt down for so many days. Whether it is my GP has changed my anti-depressant from Mirtazipine to Dosulepin (75mg for first week, 150mg for the second). No reduction was suggested to withdraw the Mirtzapine slowly considering I was taking the highest dose.
Same old story, I am fed up with feeling unreal and life getting too much. I have started driving to the supermarket on my own, to the library etc. Driving seems the only "normal" thing.
As soon as I walk my legs feel so heavy and like someone has placed a backpag full of bricks in it. My back muscles contract really badly that I end up putting ralgex on them but it brings little relief.
I phoned work today as they sent me a Criminal Bureau Records form as I am a legal advisor and work with young children. It needed renewing for another three years. I laughed when I said I wasn't going anyway and they would have me for at least another few years.
Trouble is being/talking on the phone is one thing. Going back to work would be near impossible because of the detailed knowledge/concentration needed. They are not the greatest of employers. Three years ago I had a form of breakdown and went into the Priory for 3 weeks and they almost dismissed me for having a mental illness. Therefore I feel far more pressure to keep this depression/anxiety order under wraps.
Anyway, yet again I have vented too much but I am so wracked off.
Take care of yourself and each other,
Love Fran XX