spanfan
03-06-13, 09:44
Hello,
I am 35, mother of 2 and a recent recruit to the relentless world of anxiety, and quite possibly depression.
Over the last few weeks, I have been unable to function properly which is beginning to severely affect my life. My anxiety began over worries with my 8yo son and his behaviour. In reality his behaviour is nothing naughty or difficult, just irritating habits, which I am reassure are "normal" (temporary twitchiness, sniffing, coughing etc!)
Up until a month ago, whilst the habits irritated me intensely, I could put the anxiety away once he was at school or in bed. However, this has changed as I am now constantly on edge. Fretting about how he will be on pick up, or in the morning.
This has made me lose my appetite, given me insomnia and made me increasingly anxious and depressed. I think this has moved on to being unable to rationalise that I will ever feel better, that this is *IT* for me. That there is no solution... all of which makes me even more anxious and depressed. I've also been stressing about future events and my ability to cope with them.,
I've been given sleeping pills which have helped my sleep and betablockers to regulate my anxiety symptoms. THe betablockers have half worked I suppose! I also appear to be eating better! :) But my head is still not well.
Yesterday, after a fairly rough half term (For me, I was on best behaviour in front of the kids) we dropped the kids off at my H's parents for a night. Within an hour of getting home I had a massive crash. I wouldn't classify it as a panic attack, but something very similar. I felt hopeless, in pain, and I told my H that whilst I was not suicidal, I could see no point in my life anymore.
On that note he called NHS direct and I got an urgent appt at an OOH clinic. He was great and thinks that I need more help, so I see my GP at 5pm today. I think I need some ADs for depression and CBT for the anxiety.
I have to talk here, as I have wrung my poor, wonderful husband out. My parents are in their 70s and wonderful, but not exactly sympathetic to mental health issues, my sister is abroad and has enough on her plate. I also want to hide most of this from my children. I've told them I have a "cold" in my head :)
My first real questions are,
1. What do you do to distract yourself from the anxiety when it really bites. I feel totally unable to do anything at my worst, meaning I am quite bored!! :)
2. When will I start to feel a bit of hope.
3. I have a big family wedding to attend on Saturday and I am crapping myself on my ability to cope. Any short-term solutions? My daughter is a flowergirl! argh.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for listening.
Spanfan
I am 35, mother of 2 and a recent recruit to the relentless world of anxiety, and quite possibly depression.
Over the last few weeks, I have been unable to function properly which is beginning to severely affect my life. My anxiety began over worries with my 8yo son and his behaviour. In reality his behaviour is nothing naughty or difficult, just irritating habits, which I am reassure are "normal" (temporary twitchiness, sniffing, coughing etc!)
Up until a month ago, whilst the habits irritated me intensely, I could put the anxiety away once he was at school or in bed. However, this has changed as I am now constantly on edge. Fretting about how he will be on pick up, or in the morning.
This has made me lose my appetite, given me insomnia and made me increasingly anxious and depressed. I think this has moved on to being unable to rationalise that I will ever feel better, that this is *IT* for me. That there is no solution... all of which makes me even more anxious and depressed. I've also been stressing about future events and my ability to cope with them.,
I've been given sleeping pills which have helped my sleep and betablockers to regulate my anxiety symptoms. THe betablockers have half worked I suppose! I also appear to be eating better! :) But my head is still not well.
Yesterday, after a fairly rough half term (For me, I was on best behaviour in front of the kids) we dropped the kids off at my H's parents for a night. Within an hour of getting home I had a massive crash. I wouldn't classify it as a panic attack, but something very similar. I felt hopeless, in pain, and I told my H that whilst I was not suicidal, I could see no point in my life anymore.
On that note he called NHS direct and I got an urgent appt at an OOH clinic. He was great and thinks that I need more help, so I see my GP at 5pm today. I think I need some ADs for depression and CBT for the anxiety.
I have to talk here, as I have wrung my poor, wonderful husband out. My parents are in their 70s and wonderful, but not exactly sympathetic to mental health issues, my sister is abroad and has enough on her plate. I also want to hide most of this from my children. I've told them I have a "cold" in my head :)
My first real questions are,
1. What do you do to distract yourself from the anxiety when it really bites. I feel totally unable to do anything at my worst, meaning I am quite bored!! :)
2. When will I start to feel a bit of hope.
3. I have a big family wedding to attend on Saturday and I am crapping myself on my ability to cope. Any short-term solutions? My daughter is a flowergirl! argh.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for listening.
Spanfan