ReissG
04-06-13, 04:48
It seems so long, nearly 5 weeks ago was the last time I really had this much panic going on, I'm devastated.
Okay so let me explain my issues and maybe you guys can work your support wand and help me out a little.
1. 2 months ago I had a purplish lump on my leg, the size of an eraser on a pencil. I managed to pop it and out came like just blood, it was weird, but it must have been like a blood spot or boil. I left it alone and after a few days the soreness went away and what was left was this red/purple little dot which was surrounded by like red. If I pressed onit the red would blanch but the dot would not. So yesterday i decided to google it after 2 months and I didn't find much until I saw that sometimes melanoma can sometimes be mistaken for a boil that won't heal, so that's my first terror attack
2. Even after getting a blood test and my Dr saying im 100% fine, the petechiae I constantly get from heat and clothes on my waist causes me constant terror, it went away for a few days and then today 6 appeared and it just knocked me again.
3. I have a very painful hard lymph node under my jaw at the moment. Just above it is a painful ulcer inside my lip which I got from stabbing myself with my tooth a few days ago lol and everytime I get an ulcer (canker sore) like this it seems to make the same lymph node get painful. I don't think it's swollen, just very sore, but it's still panicked me.
4. And now finally the thing that made me want to come on here and seek reassurance is that I decided to feel (I don't know why) around my collar bone and bottom of my neck for lymph nodes and what do I find? yes, you guessed it. I found 3 to be exact, 1 of them is so small it's laughable and the other 2 just feel like grains of rice, all 3 move and all 3 are very very soft. I only panicked because I know the things people say on google that collarbone lymph nodes are a big sign for lymphoma and now I'm just terrified.
I've also been having little symptoms like loose stools, belly aches, a cough that seems to be brought on by psychological thinking and a runny nose very occasionally (allergies I think)
So at the moment I think I have Leukemia, Oral cancer, Melanoma and lymphoma.
I'm going absolutely insane, I just can't calm down :(
Please, help me lol!:blush::unsure:
Okay so let me explain my issues and maybe you guys can work your support wand and help me out a little.
1. 2 months ago I had a purplish lump on my leg, the size of an eraser on a pencil. I managed to pop it and out came like just blood, it was weird, but it must have been like a blood spot or boil. I left it alone and after a few days the soreness went away and what was left was this red/purple little dot which was surrounded by like red. If I pressed onit the red would blanch but the dot would not. So yesterday i decided to google it after 2 months and I didn't find much until I saw that sometimes melanoma can sometimes be mistaken for a boil that won't heal, so that's my first terror attack
2. Even after getting a blood test and my Dr saying im 100% fine, the petechiae I constantly get from heat and clothes on my waist causes me constant terror, it went away for a few days and then today 6 appeared and it just knocked me again.
3. I have a very painful hard lymph node under my jaw at the moment. Just above it is a painful ulcer inside my lip which I got from stabbing myself with my tooth a few days ago lol and everytime I get an ulcer (canker sore) like this it seems to make the same lymph node get painful. I don't think it's swollen, just very sore, but it's still panicked me.
4. And now finally the thing that made me want to come on here and seek reassurance is that I decided to feel (I don't know why) around my collar bone and bottom of my neck for lymph nodes and what do I find? yes, you guessed it. I found 3 to be exact, 1 of them is so small it's laughable and the other 2 just feel like grains of rice, all 3 move and all 3 are very very soft. I only panicked because I know the things people say on google that collarbone lymph nodes are a big sign for lymphoma and now I'm just terrified.
I've also been having little symptoms like loose stools, belly aches, a cough that seems to be brought on by psychological thinking and a runny nose very occasionally (allergies I think)
So at the moment I think I have Leukemia, Oral cancer, Melanoma and lymphoma.
I'm going absolutely insane, I just can't calm down :(
Please, help me lol!:blush::unsure: