W.I.F.T.S.
04-10-06, 20:31
I'm actually feeling pretty good at the moment!! I'm taking a break from work to try and unwind and I think it's doing me a lot of good.
I drove about 15 miles today on my own to see my solicitor, so I was quite pleased about that and this afternoon I went to help out with a youth soccer academy. I was expecting to enjoy it about 60%, but I actually enjoyed it about 90%- I thought it was really good and it's made me feel a lot more optimistic about what I can do with my life.
I've been kind of agorophobic for a while, but tomorrow the academy want me to go back for some paid work at a place near where my job (which has been causing me a lot of anxiety) is. My thinking is "I really enjoyed coaching today and I'd like to persue it- to do that I'm going to have to travel a little bit, so I'm not going to let it stop me- infact I'm going to enjoy it!".
Things just really seem to be opening up at the minute- I'm gaining friends, opportunities are arising and I'm feeling so much better. Maybe all the hard work I've been doing is finally starting to pay off, maybe a slight change in my attitude is helping me to change my own fortunes, maybe it's just that good things are starting to happen to me.... I don't know, but I'm feeling so much better.
To be fair to myself, I think I've been really brave deciding to take some time off work and also putting a stop to my wedding, which is something that I haven't wanted. By doing more of what I really want to do, I'm empowering myself and giving myself the opportunity for happiness.:D
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.
I drove about 15 miles today on my own to see my solicitor, so I was quite pleased about that and this afternoon I went to help out with a youth soccer academy. I was expecting to enjoy it about 60%, but I actually enjoyed it about 90%- I thought it was really good and it's made me feel a lot more optimistic about what I can do with my life.
I've been kind of agorophobic for a while, but tomorrow the academy want me to go back for some paid work at a place near where my job (which has been causing me a lot of anxiety) is. My thinking is "I really enjoyed coaching today and I'd like to persue it- to do that I'm going to have to travel a little bit, so I'm not going to let it stop me- infact I'm going to enjoy it!".
Things just really seem to be opening up at the minute- I'm gaining friends, opportunities are arising and I'm feeling so much better. Maybe all the hard work I've been doing is finally starting to pay off, maybe a slight change in my attitude is helping me to change my own fortunes, maybe it's just that good things are starting to happen to me.... I don't know, but I'm feeling so much better.
To be fair to myself, I think I've been really brave deciding to take some time off work and also putting a stop to my wedding, which is something that I haven't wanted. By doing more of what I really want to do, I'm empowering myself and giving myself the opportunity for happiness.:D
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.