lovemenot
16-06-13, 03:31
I don't know if my problem is OCD or not... but... I am having this little problem that I don't know where to post:
If somebody upset me, I keep them in my mind for ever... well not for ever but till a new idiot come and upset me even more.
So I can say I had obsession with somebody from maybe age 15 to be sure, when I had problems with my schoolmaster. I was thinking of him all day long, throwing darts in his image,etc. I got robbered when i was 16 and i hated that guy for maybe 3 years, then a few problems with girls, or friends ...and i lost many months/years on each.
Now I was a victim in a fight, and for 3 years... i keep those idiots in my brain along with those stupid cops, prosecutors.
It's kind of killing me.
If I am going to village area, or to a trip i feel no dizziness, I can walk many many miles a day. When I am @home, in city ... i begun to think at my "police case" and I got dizzy after the first 30 minutes in the morning... very dizzy... depression ? dunno .... i am very scared/panicked...and i feel even worst if people approach me during that time...
Things got worse after that police case...
If somebody upset me, I keep them in my mind for ever... well not for ever but till a new idiot come and upset me even more.
So I can say I had obsession with somebody from maybe age 15 to be sure, when I had problems with my schoolmaster. I was thinking of him all day long, throwing darts in his image,etc. I got robbered when i was 16 and i hated that guy for maybe 3 years, then a few problems with girls, or friends ...and i lost many months/years on each.
Now I was a victim in a fight, and for 3 years... i keep those idiots in my brain along with those stupid cops, prosecutors.
It's kind of killing me.
If I am going to village area, or to a trip i feel no dizziness, I can walk many many miles a day. When I am @home, in city ... i begun to think at my "police case" and I got dizzy after the first 30 minutes in the morning... very dizzy... depression ? dunno .... i am very scared/panicked...and i feel even worst if people approach me during that time...
Things got worse after that police case...