LF87
19-06-13, 15:16
Hi.
This is a bit of an essay, but please read because I'm in need of some help/reassurance! My family & boyfriend won't indulge me in conversation about it anymore.
I've been looking at this forum over the last few weeks and found it really helpful so finally decided to join.
I've been suffering with major health anxiety for the past few months. I've had it all my life but managed to get it under control, until recently. It started with a sore feeling in my tongue. So, naturally, I had to check it out in the mirror. I noticed there were some bumps there. These are called foliate palpillae, I think. I wasn't initially panicked...until I googled. It came up with cancer straight away. So I went to the doctors in floods of tears. She said it was probably nothing, and referred me to see an ENT specialist after a week of it being there. He did a thorough exam and said it was nothing to worry about and sent me away. Brilliant! But the mouth 'C' thinking had already taken hold.
I got a bad throat soon after, was told I had strep throat, which then turned into tonsillitis (probably from poking my mouth 20 times a day). So I was on penicillin for ages. It's not really sore anymore but still a bit red and swollen. Not too bothered about that because I know what it is.
I then became fixated on this 'raw' feeling on the inside of my lips. It looked slightly red. Googled red area in mouth. Answer? Oral C. Another emergency appointment with my GP. She said it's nothing, that naughty things are really noticeable, there's nothing to worry about. She actually told me she promised there was nothing wrong, and to stop obsessing over my mouth. So that was another symptom down. I was feeling a little bit more relaxed, stopped the googling, until two days ago. I've had a really sore ulcer, which I'm not too fussed about, I've been run down and stressed. The new symptom that is bothering me now is a little white spot where the Wharton's ducts, (or whatever they are called) are. Its quite red with a little red spot (small) but doesn't hurt. And I'm contemplating the doctors again but I actually feel too embarrassed to go back after seeing her last. So in total I've seen an ENT specialist, doctors four times, and I saw the dentist too. But this ulcer looking thing has just appeared and it's really frightening me. I feel really sad because I just felt I was getting control back, and this thing has knocked me right back.
Does anyone have any help or advice? I can't talk to anyone in my family anymore, they don't get it and think I'm being totally ridiculous. Any replies hugely appreciated.
L x
This is a bit of an essay, but please read because I'm in need of some help/reassurance! My family & boyfriend won't indulge me in conversation about it anymore.
I've been looking at this forum over the last few weeks and found it really helpful so finally decided to join.
I've been suffering with major health anxiety for the past few months. I've had it all my life but managed to get it under control, until recently. It started with a sore feeling in my tongue. So, naturally, I had to check it out in the mirror. I noticed there were some bumps there. These are called foliate palpillae, I think. I wasn't initially panicked...until I googled. It came up with cancer straight away. So I went to the doctors in floods of tears. She said it was probably nothing, and referred me to see an ENT specialist after a week of it being there. He did a thorough exam and said it was nothing to worry about and sent me away. Brilliant! But the mouth 'C' thinking had already taken hold.
I got a bad throat soon after, was told I had strep throat, which then turned into tonsillitis (probably from poking my mouth 20 times a day). So I was on penicillin for ages. It's not really sore anymore but still a bit red and swollen. Not too bothered about that because I know what it is.
I then became fixated on this 'raw' feeling on the inside of my lips. It looked slightly red. Googled red area in mouth. Answer? Oral C. Another emergency appointment with my GP. She said it's nothing, that naughty things are really noticeable, there's nothing to worry about. She actually told me she promised there was nothing wrong, and to stop obsessing over my mouth. So that was another symptom down. I was feeling a little bit more relaxed, stopped the googling, until two days ago. I've had a really sore ulcer, which I'm not too fussed about, I've been run down and stressed. The new symptom that is bothering me now is a little white spot where the Wharton's ducts, (or whatever they are called) are. Its quite red with a little red spot (small) but doesn't hurt. And I'm contemplating the doctors again but I actually feel too embarrassed to go back after seeing her last. So in total I've seen an ENT specialist, doctors four times, and I saw the dentist too. But this ulcer looking thing has just appeared and it's really frightening me. I feel really sad because I just felt I was getting control back, and this thing has knocked me right back.
Does anyone have any help or advice? I can't talk to anyone in my family anymore, they don't get it and think I'm being totally ridiculous. Any replies hugely appreciated.
L x