Edward_1980
21-06-13, 16:02
Although I am highly anxious today, this post if more of an apology to the people I hurt back all those months ago. I did lie on a few things, I admit that, but I did tell the truth about the depression and anxiety that I suffer from. My apologies to Fozzy, Annie and Laura for a start. I never meant to hurt anyone, that wasn't my intention. I am so sorry and I hope that you guys can find it in your hearts to forgive me, and if not, I understand 100%.
So,
Last December after a hospital admission I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and a Mood Disorder. I have had a hard time coming to terms with that and have had exactly five admissions to the Psychiatric ward since. I am currently on a lot of Medication:
Prozac (20mg)
Haloperidol (5mg Twice Daily)
Seroquel (300mg)
Lyrica (150mg Twice Daily)
Clopixol Injection (200mg Weekly)
I'm not looking for anyone to forgive me, hell no. I now realize that I caused a lot of chaos on the Forum with my anger back then. I can assure you that I am functioning normally on the medication and trying to live m,y life as bast as I can.
Laura and Annie: My heart felt apologies. I can now explain to you girls what happened. I became terrified that ye would abandon (Part of BPD) me so I made stuff up to keep ye as my friend. I now realize that I should never have done that. My apologies once again. I do actually hope that we can be friends again, but it that's not to be I will take responsibility and accept that. Ye have every right to be angry with me.
Fozzy: I can't put in to words how sorry I am for insulting you. I was all over the place and saw you as a threat to my friendships on the Forum. I now realize that you were just looking out for them and I am so sorry.
Today I am having panic attacks. I accidentally took a sleeping pill to relax and a Tylex (Paracetamol and Codeine) for the back pain I have and now I'm full of panic and terrified that my heart will stop. I went to a Neighbours party on the 23th of DEcember last year and drank too much. I had a fall down the start, punctured my lung and broke my pelvis. I was in hospital for 5 weeks and spent another month learning to walk again without the help of crutches. They had a chest drain in the re-inflate the lung and that was actually a lot more painful than the actual pelvis.
So, that's how I have been doing over the past seven months and as you can see I am a lot more stable and ready to face my demons. Once again, my heartfelt apologies to anyone that I offended or upset. Thanks to Nicola for allowing me to post here again. I really need it to be honest.:flowers:
So,
Last December after a hospital admission I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety Disorder and a Mood Disorder. I have had a hard time coming to terms with that and have had exactly five admissions to the Psychiatric ward since. I am currently on a lot of Medication:
Prozac (20mg)
Haloperidol (5mg Twice Daily)
Seroquel (300mg)
Lyrica (150mg Twice Daily)
Clopixol Injection (200mg Weekly)
I'm not looking for anyone to forgive me, hell no. I now realize that I caused a lot of chaos on the Forum with my anger back then. I can assure you that I am functioning normally on the medication and trying to live m,y life as bast as I can.
Laura and Annie: My heart felt apologies. I can now explain to you girls what happened. I became terrified that ye would abandon (Part of BPD) me so I made stuff up to keep ye as my friend. I now realize that I should never have done that. My apologies once again. I do actually hope that we can be friends again, but it that's not to be I will take responsibility and accept that. Ye have every right to be angry with me.
Fozzy: I can't put in to words how sorry I am for insulting you. I was all over the place and saw you as a threat to my friendships on the Forum. I now realize that you were just looking out for them and I am so sorry.
Today I am having panic attacks. I accidentally took a sleeping pill to relax and a Tylex (Paracetamol and Codeine) for the back pain I have and now I'm full of panic and terrified that my heart will stop. I went to a Neighbours party on the 23th of DEcember last year and drank too much. I had a fall down the start, punctured my lung and broke my pelvis. I was in hospital for 5 weeks and spent another month learning to walk again without the help of crutches. They had a chest drain in the re-inflate the lung and that was actually a lot more painful than the actual pelvis.
So, that's how I have been doing over the past seven months and as you can see I am a lot more stable and ready to face my demons. Once again, my heartfelt apologies to anyone that I offended or upset. Thanks to Nicola for allowing me to post here again. I really need it to be honest.:flowers: