Hipster
06-10-06, 11:58
Hi to all users, thought I'd just share my experiences as my first post on the site.
I have been suffering from panic attacks for around three years, my personal attacks are light headedness and a fear of fainting, nausea and a fear of being sick coupled with my throat closing up and feeling that it is hard to breath. My first attack was out of the blue in a bar I was a regular in, I was with my girlfriend (now wife) and two of my closest friends. Since then they were infrequent but bubbling under, I started getting them everywhere and when I started getting them at work it really started to be fun! To cut a long storey short around seven or eight months ago it came to a head and I finally admitted to my wife what was wrong with me (I had just got very good at avoidence) I went to my GP and was signed off my work (a pensions case manager for a large financial company). I was prescribed flupentixol and referred to a counsellor. After a few weeks off work I tried to return and all the panic came back. I have ended up leaving work losing my house and moving in with my in-laws, this all started to get me down further and a sunk into a depression. Its not all doom and gloom, I had, apart from not working been living a normal life for the past couple of months, I had been out everywhere and not experienced a single attack, I felt so confident I started going for interviews and last week I was offered a good job in the finance department of a car insurance company. Here's where it gets bad again..... After about ten minutes of joy that I may be getting my life back the anxiety kicked in, I'm now in terror of starting next week and while shopping for new work clothes I had my first full attack for months. I had to go back to my GP and he has presribed propranolol to take the edge off on Monday morning. I feel so much pressure to suceed in this job on Monday and want it to work for the sake of myself and prehaps more so for my wife.
I would love to hear your experiences and advice. Thanks for listening.
I have been suffering from panic attacks for around three years, my personal attacks are light headedness and a fear of fainting, nausea and a fear of being sick coupled with my throat closing up and feeling that it is hard to breath. My first attack was out of the blue in a bar I was a regular in, I was with my girlfriend (now wife) and two of my closest friends. Since then they were infrequent but bubbling under, I started getting them everywhere and when I started getting them at work it really started to be fun! To cut a long storey short around seven or eight months ago it came to a head and I finally admitted to my wife what was wrong with me (I had just got very good at avoidence) I went to my GP and was signed off my work (a pensions case manager for a large financial company). I was prescribed flupentixol and referred to a counsellor. After a few weeks off work I tried to return and all the panic came back. I have ended up leaving work losing my house and moving in with my in-laws, this all started to get me down further and a sunk into a depression. Its not all doom and gloom, I had, apart from not working been living a normal life for the past couple of months, I had been out everywhere and not experienced a single attack, I felt so confident I started going for interviews and last week I was offered a good job in the finance department of a car insurance company. Here's where it gets bad again..... After about ten minutes of joy that I may be getting my life back the anxiety kicked in, I'm now in terror of starting next week and while shopping for new work clothes I had my first full attack for months. I had to go back to my GP and he has presribed propranolol to take the edge off on Monday morning. I feel so much pressure to suceed in this job on Monday and want it to work for the sake of myself and prehaps more so for my wife.
I would love to hear your experiences and advice. Thanks for listening.