Freaked
01-07-13, 23:21
So, I've got a heart event monitor for a week from my gp (my cardiologist basically discharged me). Pressed it once so far, when I was feeling my pulse cos I felt odd and it felt like it did some palps. Terrible reflux atm, which seems to make them worse. But tomorrow...
Tomorrow, hopefully, I go to the nearest hospital grounds with my parents and boyfriend and take a short walk. This may not sound like much, but my heart will race, my vision will probably blur out, I'll pass out or some combination. I or someone else if I collapse quite spontaneously (has happened before) will push the button, and then, assuming I wake up again, I'll finally get to see wtf is going on when this stuff happens. I'm sick of getting ekgs just lying there and being like 'well lying there isn't normally my problem'. Hopefully what I have is just POTS syndrome, but I'm beyond sick of feeling this sick and not knowing what's going on when I do.
The way I see it, if I was really at the point where a short walk might kill me... Then I'd probably have to face up to that sooner or later anyway. If this stuff is benign, then this should let me know and I won't be terrified to stand anymore. Maybe I'd even be able to start getting better.
So.
Tomorrow, hopefully, I go to the nearest hospital grounds with my parents and boyfriend and take a short walk. This may not sound like much, but my heart will race, my vision will probably blur out, I'll pass out or some combination. I or someone else if I collapse quite spontaneously (has happened before) will push the button, and then, assuming I wake up again, I'll finally get to see wtf is going on when this stuff happens. I'm sick of getting ekgs just lying there and being like 'well lying there isn't normally my problem'. Hopefully what I have is just POTS syndrome, but I'm beyond sick of feeling this sick and not knowing what's going on when I do.
The way I see it, if I was really at the point where a short walk might kill me... Then I'd probably have to face up to that sooner or later anyway. If this stuff is benign, then this should let me know and I won't be terrified to stand anymore. Maybe I'd even be able to start getting better.
So.