roady
02-07-13, 06:50
Hi. I'm new to the forum, so I thought I'd introduce myself as an opportunity to just talk out how I've been feeling lately. I am a lifetime sufferer of depression and anxiety. In the past few years the depression has mostly subsided and I've been left with the anxiety bit... I have a very wonderful life, with a loving partner, kind friends, and a great family. But I still have trouble not worrying. I guess I worry a lot that it will all go away. I'm also fearful of dying. This is the root of most of my anxiety -- just a general fear of death.
This past week has been a tough one for me. I've been very ill, physically, with some sort of severe stomach bug. I had to go to the ER for dehydration, and that was extremely stressful. Recovery has been very hard. I'm still not fully recovered, and struggling to eat. My partner thinks I have IBS/GERD brought on by stress. He loves me, but I think he gets weary of my anxiety issues sometimes (as well he should, they make me weary too). The other day I happened to see some messages he exchanged with a mutual friend about my anxiety and illness weighing on him, he even gave her a laundry list of some of my biggest fears (flying in planes, riding in cars, general health woes). I just felt kind of heartbroken that my anxiety is affecting his quality of life so much. I love him very much.
So I'm taking this step, reaching out to this community. I haven't done much about my anxiety in the past except for attempts at self care. Faith helps me a lot, but sometimes I still struggle. So, I look forward to meeting you all and talking more about our anxiety and trying to panic less. Thanks for reading.
Best,
roady
This past week has been a tough one for me. I've been very ill, physically, with some sort of severe stomach bug. I had to go to the ER for dehydration, and that was extremely stressful. Recovery has been very hard. I'm still not fully recovered, and struggling to eat. My partner thinks I have IBS/GERD brought on by stress. He loves me, but I think he gets weary of my anxiety issues sometimes (as well he should, they make me weary too). The other day I happened to see some messages he exchanged with a mutual friend about my anxiety and illness weighing on him, he even gave her a laundry list of some of my biggest fears (flying in planes, riding in cars, general health woes). I just felt kind of heartbroken that my anxiety is affecting his quality of life so much. I love him very much.
So I'm taking this step, reaching out to this community. I haven't done much about my anxiety in the past except for attempts at self care. Faith helps me a lot, but sometimes I still struggle. So, I look forward to meeting you all and talking more about our anxiety and trying to panic less. Thanks for reading.
Best,
roady