MrsStobe13
03-07-13, 15:15
hey all,
You're probably all too aware lately I've posted a lot about some horrific violent thoughts. Well, in the past 48 hours I've made some huge progress! Late last night I was talking to my husband about them and I said I've now come to realise I am stronger and better than these thoughts. For a while I've said that they are beating me and I can't cope, last night I told my husband that I was stronger and have been all along otherwise people would be dead by now. I know they are immoral and wrong, I hate blood, I don't want to act on these horrific ideas and I don't want to go to prison or never see loved ones again!
This afternoon I was talking to my neighbour about the recent number of people using our communal garden as a footpath. He said that prison is like a hotel now and hard labour would sort them out, then told me about a woman he knew who ended up in prison for murdering her Dad. Without thinking I just said "oh god! I could never do that! I have too much self control to murder someone in anger". BANG! Sudden realisation...
I AM stronger!!!
Chin up all, there is light at the end of the tunnel, sun through the clouds etc! Have faith and believe you are better and stronger than the anxiety!
Mrs S x
You're probably all too aware lately I've posted a lot about some horrific violent thoughts. Well, in the past 48 hours I've made some huge progress! Late last night I was talking to my husband about them and I said I've now come to realise I am stronger and better than these thoughts. For a while I've said that they are beating me and I can't cope, last night I told my husband that I was stronger and have been all along otherwise people would be dead by now. I know they are immoral and wrong, I hate blood, I don't want to act on these horrific ideas and I don't want to go to prison or never see loved ones again!
This afternoon I was talking to my neighbour about the recent number of people using our communal garden as a footpath. He said that prison is like a hotel now and hard labour would sort them out, then told me about a woman he knew who ended up in prison for murdering her Dad. Without thinking I just said "oh god! I could never do that! I have too much self control to murder someone in anger". BANG! Sudden realisation...
I AM stronger!!!
Chin up all, there is light at the end of the tunnel, sun through the clouds etc! Have faith and believe you are better and stronger than the anxiety!
Mrs S x