amaz0n
04-07-13, 17:26
Hi all,
I'm Anita, my friends call me Neet. I suffer from severe panic disorder, anxiety, depression,ibs and all that comes with it. Basically I'm petrified of dying and think that I have every illness in the book.. laughable I know but it's really getting too much. I know why I'm like this and although I've always been a deep thinker from a child (worrying if I was going to die) now I'm actually in a situation that if I die who will look after my daughter as she has severe learning difficulties and she has dilated cardiomyopathy. She ideally needs a heart transplant but because she has chronic renal failure too this is not possible so I am doing my best and have done for almost 15 years by keeping her well and being very observant of her. At the moment she is very well and happy but I am finding life very difficult as i have terrible Ibs, butterfly rash on my face and panic/anxiety/depression. I am constantly re checking things and even doubt myself aLot - that's a new thing btw.
I should be enjoying everyday but can't, I am driving myself daft with worry.
I joined this forum to meet friends alike whom I can maybe get some understanding and advice from and vice versa.
I'm currently on medication propanalol, diazepam and the most recent pregabalin and a small amount of coedine for the ibs.
Anyway that's me in a nutshell. I look forward to making new friends and realising that I'm not alone - I hope!!
I'm Anita, my friends call me Neet. I suffer from severe panic disorder, anxiety, depression,ibs and all that comes with it. Basically I'm petrified of dying and think that I have every illness in the book.. laughable I know but it's really getting too much. I know why I'm like this and although I've always been a deep thinker from a child (worrying if I was going to die) now I'm actually in a situation that if I die who will look after my daughter as she has severe learning difficulties and she has dilated cardiomyopathy. She ideally needs a heart transplant but because she has chronic renal failure too this is not possible so I am doing my best and have done for almost 15 years by keeping her well and being very observant of her. At the moment she is very well and happy but I am finding life very difficult as i have terrible Ibs, butterfly rash on my face and panic/anxiety/depression. I am constantly re checking things and even doubt myself aLot - that's a new thing btw.
I should be enjoying everyday but can't, I am driving myself daft with worry.
I joined this forum to meet friends alike whom I can maybe get some understanding and advice from and vice versa.
I'm currently on medication propanalol, diazepam and the most recent pregabalin and a small amount of coedine for the ibs.
Anyway that's me in a nutshell. I look forward to making new friends and realising that I'm not alone - I hope!!