ben_jamzin
07-07-13, 12:21
Hello,
I suffer from health anxiety but over the years my obsessions have moved towards developing a severe mental illness (namely schizophrenia).
I have spent far too much time reading up on the illness (much like how many people research heart diseases etc...). I am currently working in China and am at the receiving end of extreme anxiety today, particularly surrounding the prospect of developing a serious issue. Whilst I am fully aware that I am not currently experiencing a state of psychosis I am concerned that I am going through the prodromal or beginning phase of the illness - a number of times today I have been convinced of this.
My main symptom is constantly checking my surroundings and on occasion believing I am seeing people I live with through the corner of my eye, only to turn and look at that person and finding they are not there. I am utterly terrified and convinced I need to seek help but I am currently living in a small city in China where the state of mental health care and counselling is practically non existent.
Can anybody help me? Please share your experiences, have you felt anything like this? I am also consistently worried that I will develop paranoid thoughts and put myself under intense self analysis to try and diagnose myself. If there is anybody here who has a good knowledge or even a medical background in dealing with serious mental illness, would you please be able to shed some light on my situation?
I have seen a counsellor at home numerous times who has reassured me that I am not going to develop a serious disorder and that I do not present any signs of the illness, but I cannot stop being frightened at the shapes and people I appear to be seeing out of the corner of my eye.
Many thanks,
I suffer from health anxiety but over the years my obsessions have moved towards developing a severe mental illness (namely schizophrenia).
I have spent far too much time reading up on the illness (much like how many people research heart diseases etc...). I am currently working in China and am at the receiving end of extreme anxiety today, particularly surrounding the prospect of developing a serious issue. Whilst I am fully aware that I am not currently experiencing a state of psychosis I am concerned that I am going through the prodromal or beginning phase of the illness - a number of times today I have been convinced of this.
My main symptom is constantly checking my surroundings and on occasion believing I am seeing people I live with through the corner of my eye, only to turn and look at that person and finding they are not there. I am utterly terrified and convinced I need to seek help but I am currently living in a small city in China where the state of mental health care and counselling is practically non existent.
Can anybody help me? Please share your experiences, have you felt anything like this? I am also consistently worried that I will develop paranoid thoughts and put myself under intense self analysis to try and diagnose myself. If there is anybody here who has a good knowledge or even a medical background in dealing with serious mental illness, would you please be able to shed some light on my situation?
I have seen a counsellor at home numerous times who has reassured me that I am not going to develop a serious disorder and that I do not present any signs of the illness, but I cannot stop being frightened at the shapes and people I appear to be seeing out of the corner of my eye.
Many thanks,