karlyo
10-07-13, 18:06
The past few months have been the worst of my life. I am 28 and feel like I am 98.
A few months back an ecg threw up an abnormality, which led to test after test, which revealed a congential heart defect. 2 months later I was having heart surgery. My anxiety at this point was manageable, I coped well. I recovered, and felt great, everyone said how well I looked.
2 weeks later my anxiety hit. I had headaches for weeks and had to work through all of the brain tumour worries, and came out the other side.
Then a few weeks ago I got awful tonsilitis. Antiobiotics fixed it but I have felt terrible ever since. My enitre neck hurts. My glands are sore, I have tender spots on the front of my neck lower down, my shoulders and back of neck is incredibly tense. Everything hurts. I have cycled back and forth between lymphoma, thyroid cancer, leukaemia...everything. I just broke down in front of the GP cos I feel so awful. She said it is not unnusual to still feel unwell after a nasty infection, especially given I have also had heart surgery, but has ordered blood tests in case. I am also waiting for CBT.
I just cant keep doing this, I havent got the energy to keep working through this, and calming myself down, I am so tired. I keep thinking this CANT just be anxiety, all of this must mean I am ill. And then I keep thinking how can this be fair, isnt the heart thing enough on my plate this year?
I am just so low today. :(
A few months back an ecg threw up an abnormality, which led to test after test, which revealed a congential heart defect. 2 months later I was having heart surgery. My anxiety at this point was manageable, I coped well. I recovered, and felt great, everyone said how well I looked.
2 weeks later my anxiety hit. I had headaches for weeks and had to work through all of the brain tumour worries, and came out the other side.
Then a few weeks ago I got awful tonsilitis. Antiobiotics fixed it but I have felt terrible ever since. My enitre neck hurts. My glands are sore, I have tender spots on the front of my neck lower down, my shoulders and back of neck is incredibly tense. Everything hurts. I have cycled back and forth between lymphoma, thyroid cancer, leukaemia...everything. I just broke down in front of the GP cos I feel so awful. She said it is not unnusual to still feel unwell after a nasty infection, especially given I have also had heart surgery, but has ordered blood tests in case. I am also waiting for CBT.
I just cant keep doing this, I havent got the energy to keep working through this, and calming myself down, I am so tired. I keep thinking this CANT just be anxiety, all of this must mean I am ill. And then I keep thinking how can this be fair, isnt the heart thing enough on my plate this year?
I am just so low today. :(