Malmortius
10-07-13, 23:57
The worst is at night. I have to wait until it goes light outside just to go asleep and i don't know why. thats usually about 4am. Sometimes i feel like i could go blind at any second, which leads into a panic attack.
About a year ago i was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I've worked hard over the year but i'm still constantly worrying, i can't enjoy anything.
I keep thinking, if i go asleep i might wake up blind. Being blind is my biggest fear, and I'm terrified of it happening. I'm short sighted and a about a year ago i started to see a few floaters in my eyes (harmless i'm told). I had 3 professional doctors do all kinds of tests and said my eyes are fine apart from that. A couple of weeks ago i went for an eye exam and there were no concerns.
Now i'm thinking like last time, is there something she missed? No matter how much logic i put to it, it doesn't work.
Plus the floaters, they are a constant reminder of that time a year ago i worried myself into hospital.
When i try to preoccupy myself with hobbies, the worries come back as soon as i stop. Any time my mind is clear ill think about it. And thats not my only fear, if i have a pain in my arm ill worry until i go to the doctors. A couple of days or weeks later something else will pop up and ill obsess over it.
What do i do?
About a year ago i was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I've worked hard over the year but i'm still constantly worrying, i can't enjoy anything.
I keep thinking, if i go asleep i might wake up blind. Being blind is my biggest fear, and I'm terrified of it happening. I'm short sighted and a about a year ago i started to see a few floaters in my eyes (harmless i'm told). I had 3 professional doctors do all kinds of tests and said my eyes are fine apart from that. A couple of weeks ago i went for an eye exam and there were no concerns.
Now i'm thinking like last time, is there something she missed? No matter how much logic i put to it, it doesn't work.
Plus the floaters, they are a constant reminder of that time a year ago i worried myself into hospital.
When i try to preoccupy myself with hobbies, the worries come back as soon as i stop. Any time my mind is clear ill think about it. And thats not my only fear, if i have a pain in my arm ill worry until i go to the doctors. A couple of days or weeks later something else will pop up and ill obsess over it.
What do i do?