MrsStobe13
11-07-13, 23:49
Hi folks,
I am just coming out of a serious few years of depression and anxiety and it's finally been tallied up that it was my hormones worsening my GAD to near intolerable levels. I've had constant violent thoughts and I've been high with anxiety a lot of the time because I've been so worried about attacking someone.
Anyhow, I'm now off of those pills and back to trying to get normal me back. I've started taking St John's Wort and wondered if I can take Valerian to ease the agitated feelings I've been having, too. Also, Rescue Remedy pastilles when I get really, really bad? I've taken two St John's Wort tablets today and about 3 Rescue Remedy pastilles. The day has been bearable and I'm not feeling like I'm about to go quite so crazy. Frankly, I don't plan ever to come off of St John's Wort now, it seems to be very beneficial for my anxiety.
I've maybe over Googled a bit and assured myself I'm a serial killer. I get really anxious with a racing heart and tell myself I'm one of "them" people. I feel really ashamed and moritifed about how my family would feel. I even had to go to the shop earlier to get electricity, I felt like I was about to hit the shop assistant for no reason other than that my anxiety was telling me to. I'm still no nearer to getting myself any CBT but to be honest I'm not sure there's much they can do for me. I already make myself touch knives and handle them around people and myself. Just to prove to myself despite how anxious I feel, I have no desire to go through with these thoughts. I think about killing myself when I think about killing someone I love, and I think about not doing anything when I think about killing myself. I;m just all round an anxious mess. It's always worse around the week before my period (sorry if that's TMI) but on hormonal pills I feel like I'm going crazy.
I don't plan to take this cocktail for more than a month or two. I know an anti-depressant would probably be recommended by my GP but I much prefer a homeopathic route and have definitely found St John's Wort to be gentler in the past, whilst making an almost immediate change to my anxiety. If anyone can cast some thought onto this idea I'd appreciate it. Obviously, I don't want to knock myself for six! lol
Thanks all
MrsS x
I am just coming out of a serious few years of depression and anxiety and it's finally been tallied up that it was my hormones worsening my GAD to near intolerable levels. I've had constant violent thoughts and I've been high with anxiety a lot of the time because I've been so worried about attacking someone.
Anyhow, I'm now off of those pills and back to trying to get normal me back. I've started taking St John's Wort and wondered if I can take Valerian to ease the agitated feelings I've been having, too. Also, Rescue Remedy pastilles when I get really, really bad? I've taken two St John's Wort tablets today and about 3 Rescue Remedy pastilles. The day has been bearable and I'm not feeling like I'm about to go quite so crazy. Frankly, I don't plan ever to come off of St John's Wort now, it seems to be very beneficial for my anxiety.
I've maybe over Googled a bit and assured myself I'm a serial killer. I get really anxious with a racing heart and tell myself I'm one of "them" people. I feel really ashamed and moritifed about how my family would feel. I even had to go to the shop earlier to get electricity, I felt like I was about to hit the shop assistant for no reason other than that my anxiety was telling me to. I'm still no nearer to getting myself any CBT but to be honest I'm not sure there's much they can do for me. I already make myself touch knives and handle them around people and myself. Just to prove to myself despite how anxious I feel, I have no desire to go through with these thoughts. I think about killing myself when I think about killing someone I love, and I think about not doing anything when I think about killing myself. I;m just all round an anxious mess. It's always worse around the week before my period (sorry if that's TMI) but on hormonal pills I feel like I'm going crazy.
I don't plan to take this cocktail for more than a month or two. I know an anti-depressant would probably be recommended by my GP but I much prefer a homeopathic route and have definitely found St John's Wort to be gentler in the past, whilst making an almost immediate change to my anxiety. If anyone can cast some thought onto this idea I'd appreciate it. Obviously, I don't want to knock myself for six! lol
Thanks all
MrsS x