gem7
12-07-13, 18:39
i feel more scared and feel shaken reason been two nights tuesday and thursday heard like someone banging on my door at half ten in the night my sister opened door yesterday when she got off phone to my brother and all she could see was a cat up the road i.m so scared if i hear it tonight i just had a cry in the toilet who ever is doing that is making me worse its making me not want to sit down stairs at all when i spend all day in my room anyway only the evening that i go downstairs to watch tv i said if we hear it again for my sister to open the door fast to see whos doing it i dont need this its making me more in myself i find it so hard to relax in my home then when i did feel abit relax then that happens now thinking that i think everyone is out to get me thinking could it be one of my neighbours doing it cos if they know the way i am if there doing it to try and make me move well its not going to work i only go when landlord dont want to take me on anymore and that day i am dreading cos it was really hard to find this place i.m in now i feel so low today i got blind in kitchen whitch i havent opened in a while cos of the way i am and my anxiety has gotten worse maybe they notice that but that no reason to do that to us we have done nothing to no one we just keep to ourself & cos of my anxiety & depression i have lamp on for abit then i turn it off then just sit with the landing light on the stairs it makes living room more darker i like watching tv like that i feel more comfortable doing that but still if they notice that . that is still no reason to do that and make my life more hell when i.m going through anuff i am really considering killing myself i havent left the house since june 4th only done two days out the house thats all i could handle since then i havent felt up to going out i could really use some support here thanks :weep:
---------- Post added at 17:39 ---------- Previous post was at 16:44 ----------
when i mean banging sounded like someone punched door hard then ran two nights i have heard this my mind feels so muddled i just dont know what to do anymore just feel like taken the easy way out :frown:
---------- Post added at 17:39 ---------- Previous post was at 16:44 ----------
when i mean banging sounded like someone punched door hard then ran two nights i have heard this my mind feels so muddled i just dont know what to do anymore just feel like taken the easy way out :frown: