Nicola Main
15-07-13, 19:29
Hi nice to meet you all. For the past 4 or so years I've been getting really bad panic attacks usually if it's a really bright sunny day or if I happen to be walking in an open place. A combination of the two is an absolute nightmare. If I were to stand in the middle of a huge open field in the middle of nowhere on a cloudless, warm sunny day that would be hell.
I haven't always been like this I used to take walks by myself in a local wood with nothing but my camera or binoculars with me and I would be absolutely fine. The panic attacks can happen anywhere and anytime. I saw a psychologist about it but he didn't really help. I'm trying so hard to not think about having a panic attack my mind automatically thinks about it. Sometimes it gets so bad I just want to die (I would never kill myself as suicide is a pretty drastic and very final thing to do) but the feelings get so bad sometimes.
I'm really hating all this sunny weather we've been getting lately. Everyone else seems to pray for hot, sunny days and I would rather have a cloudy day.
I don't know how, why or where this first started but I hate it as you can imagine. Sometimes I don't want to even sit in the garden. I'm very lucky in that my workplace is a few hundred yards along the main road from our house so if I start to feel panicky I can just run into the shop. I know running heightens the panic but I can't help myself. I just want to get out of the situation.
I've been trying to find a forum to which I could speak to like-minded people and get some advice and comfort. Will have a look around the forum and hope to speak soon ;)
I haven't always been like this I used to take walks by myself in a local wood with nothing but my camera or binoculars with me and I would be absolutely fine. The panic attacks can happen anywhere and anytime. I saw a psychologist about it but he didn't really help. I'm trying so hard to not think about having a panic attack my mind automatically thinks about it. Sometimes it gets so bad I just want to die (I would never kill myself as suicide is a pretty drastic and very final thing to do) but the feelings get so bad sometimes.
I'm really hating all this sunny weather we've been getting lately. Everyone else seems to pray for hot, sunny days and I would rather have a cloudy day.
I don't know how, why or where this first started but I hate it as you can imagine. Sometimes I don't want to even sit in the garden. I'm very lucky in that my workplace is a few hundred yards along the main road from our house so if I start to feel panicky I can just run into the shop. I know running heightens the panic but I can't help myself. I just want to get out of the situation.
I've been trying to find a forum to which I could speak to like-minded people and get some advice and comfort. Will have a look around the forum and hope to speak soon ;)