Itsonlyme26
17-07-13, 07:23
Ive been on 40mg citalopram , previously 20mg , since the beginning of the year and it has helped me a lot. I feel I can handle my moods as well as my uncontrollable emotions but I still do get ups and downs , which is part of life. I'm 100% sure though that this medication does NOTHING for my anxiety I know it's not anxiety medication but my doctor said 'when your depression lifts so will your anxiety' which has only been true a tiny little bit. I also asked him does citalopram make you gain weight to which he replied 'no , if anything they make you lose weight' and I know for a fact this isn't true , just look on google. Since starting this medication I have an appetite of two people and when I do eat there is no stopping me it's like the medication has knocked down my barriers. For example , if I'm at work or at home and I have a snack which could be biscuits or a flap jack instead of eating two biscuits I'd eat 9 biscuits ! Also if I eat a flapjack i start thinking about what my next snack or meal is going to be and I'll have thoughts such as 'go back in the shop you need more food' , 'mmmm just you wait to dinner I'm going to have a big massive meal' the most scariest thought is 'you need to eat more food everyday'. I dont know wether this actually does have anything to do with the medication or if I've developed an eating disorder through yo yo dieting , which I am so hard on myself about. I know the obvious thing to do would be to go back to my doctors and talk to him but I hate my doctor I really do he has to be the worst doctor I've ever had , he never listens to what I talk about. I had therapy last year and my therapist said I have health anxiety because I worry about health issues a lot , not anymore , so I feel my doctor thinks I'm always over reacting and never takes me seriously. So how can I get my eating under control or is it just the medication stopping signals in my brain ? How can I stop my anxiety naturally ?