NeilSimpson
17-07-13, 10:36
Im so sorry if this is going to depress anybody, and if it is, please remove this thread...
I struggle to let out my emotions anyway but as you are aware, I recently gave up alcohol, until yesterday when I found out a very good friend of mine died, his name was tom and was more like a dad to me, im 30 and he was 58, he was my darts captain, my football coach when I was playing and has always been there for me...
The day he died we was watching Indonesia v arsenal, he did his usual bringing toys round for my kids and a 8 pack of lager for himself, obviously I wasn't drinking. then my phone goes off early hours of the next morning (Monday) and hes dead,
Tickets have arrived today for our emirates cup trip that he was looking forward to and now ive just completely lost it, im in chills, crying, I just want god to give me my friend back! This is the hardest thing ive ever typed, but I bet toms looking down at me thinking, prat LOL.
Sorry if I bored anyone but this is too hard and too much, 3 deaths in 2 years.
---------- Post added at 10:36 ---------- Previous post was at 10:29 ----------
My song for you Tommy:
Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A laugh that healed the broken heart
With all that it could
Lived the life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart
With all that I could
Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?
How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away
Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we're so invincible
The truth is so cold
A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find
A place in my mind
Where you can stay
You can stay away forever
How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away
Sleep tight I'm not afraid (not afraid)
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me (place for me)
'Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally
How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you're so far away
I love you, you were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you, when He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands untied
So far away (so close)
And I need you to know
So far away (so close)
And I need you to, need you to know
I struggle to let out my emotions anyway but as you are aware, I recently gave up alcohol, until yesterday when I found out a very good friend of mine died, his name was tom and was more like a dad to me, im 30 and he was 58, he was my darts captain, my football coach when I was playing and has always been there for me...
The day he died we was watching Indonesia v arsenal, he did his usual bringing toys round for my kids and a 8 pack of lager for himself, obviously I wasn't drinking. then my phone goes off early hours of the next morning (Monday) and hes dead,
Tickets have arrived today for our emirates cup trip that he was looking forward to and now ive just completely lost it, im in chills, crying, I just want god to give me my friend back! This is the hardest thing ive ever typed, but I bet toms looking down at me thinking, prat LOL.
Sorry if I bored anyone but this is too hard and too much, 3 deaths in 2 years.
---------- Post added at 10:36 ---------- Previous post was at 10:29 ----------
My song for you Tommy:
Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A laugh that healed the broken heart
With all that it could
Lived the life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart
With all that I could
Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?
How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away
Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we're so invincible
The truth is so cold
A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find
A place in my mind
Where you can stay
You can stay away forever
How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away
Sleep tight I'm not afraid (not afraid)
The ones that we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me (place for me)
'Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally
How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you're so far away
I love you, you were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you, when He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands untied
So far away (so close)
And I need you to know
So far away (so close)
And I need you to, need you to know