emster
13-10-06, 20:45
Hi, i havent been on this forum for a while but i'm back now because i've been having a really bad run of attacks lately and would really appreciate any help anyone has to offer.
i thought i'd been doing really well with curing them. Even though i was still agoraphobic i managed to go for months and months without having an attack, and was even starting to try to venture out alone again, then i suddenly started having really intensely severe attacks again, this has been going on for several months now, except for a week when i was on holiday and i was fine, but almost as soon as i got back it started again and seems to be getting steadily worse.
For the most part i manage to stay more or less panic free during the day although rather more anxious and feeling ill, apart from when i go out, which i had previously been doing without too much of a problem so long as someone was with me, but now ive started having panics even when accompanied.
my main problem is at night. For ages now i've been waking up nearly every night at roughly the same time (between 11:30 and midnight) having really horrendously frightening attacks where my head burns or feels numb, i feel really hot, i feel sick, my whole body feels really numb and weak and tingly and i feel like i cant walk (even though actually i can), i shivver really violently and feel really tense, and its so bad i feel like im about to die at any second, as well as all the physical symptoms i feel really badly depressed and cant stand to be on my own so i usually end up running into my boyfreind's room for comfort (which i know hes getting really sick of now because i usually end up just getting yelled at and then feeling even worse). it does pass eventually, and i only seem to be getting one per night, but at the time it feels unbearable and it seems to take quite a long time before i can manage to get back to sleep again, which only seems to happen after a lengthy routine of getting up, splashing my face neck arms and legs and dipping my head in cold water,taking indigestion tablets, rescue remedy and some sort of suggary drink, rebrushing my teeth, breathing in and out of a paper bag for a few minutes several times, and having a good cry. When I finally manage to calm down, which can take an hour or more depending on whether and how quickly any of these things work, i either have to read a book or cuddle up with the cat until i cant keep my eyes open any longer to get me calm enough to go back to sleep and im getting really exhausted from constantly having my sleep disturbed every night, and then having to get up and go to work in the mornings feeling awful.
i have absolutlely no idea what to do. i dont know how to prevent them because i dont even know why theyre happening and whats causing them and i cant prepare myself for them because they come when i'm asleep and they wake me up and i'm usually too confused and disoriented to cope with them well. I'm getting especially worried now because my boyfreind has to go away next weekend which means i have to sleep in the flat on my own, and im scared in case i wake up in a panic when theres no one there, i even seriously considered just staying awake for the 2 nights, which is obviously ridiculous.
does anyone have any idea at all what the problem might be + why i keep waking up? any suggestions at all? and does anyone have any ideas about what i can do? because im absolutely desperate to make it stop.
thank you for reading.
i thought i'd been doing really well with curing them. Even though i was still agoraphobic i managed to go for months and months without having an attack, and was even starting to try to venture out alone again, then i suddenly started having really intensely severe attacks again, this has been going on for several months now, except for a week when i was on holiday and i was fine, but almost as soon as i got back it started again and seems to be getting steadily worse.
For the most part i manage to stay more or less panic free during the day although rather more anxious and feeling ill, apart from when i go out, which i had previously been doing without too much of a problem so long as someone was with me, but now ive started having panics even when accompanied.
my main problem is at night. For ages now i've been waking up nearly every night at roughly the same time (between 11:30 and midnight) having really horrendously frightening attacks where my head burns or feels numb, i feel really hot, i feel sick, my whole body feels really numb and weak and tingly and i feel like i cant walk (even though actually i can), i shivver really violently and feel really tense, and its so bad i feel like im about to die at any second, as well as all the physical symptoms i feel really badly depressed and cant stand to be on my own so i usually end up running into my boyfreind's room for comfort (which i know hes getting really sick of now because i usually end up just getting yelled at and then feeling even worse). it does pass eventually, and i only seem to be getting one per night, but at the time it feels unbearable and it seems to take quite a long time before i can manage to get back to sleep again, which only seems to happen after a lengthy routine of getting up, splashing my face neck arms and legs and dipping my head in cold water,taking indigestion tablets, rescue remedy and some sort of suggary drink, rebrushing my teeth, breathing in and out of a paper bag for a few minutes several times, and having a good cry. When I finally manage to calm down, which can take an hour or more depending on whether and how quickly any of these things work, i either have to read a book or cuddle up with the cat until i cant keep my eyes open any longer to get me calm enough to go back to sleep and im getting really exhausted from constantly having my sleep disturbed every night, and then having to get up and go to work in the mornings feeling awful.
i have absolutlely no idea what to do. i dont know how to prevent them because i dont even know why theyre happening and whats causing them and i cant prepare myself for them because they come when i'm asleep and they wake me up and i'm usually too confused and disoriented to cope with them well. I'm getting especially worried now because my boyfreind has to go away next weekend which means i have to sleep in the flat on my own, and im scared in case i wake up in a panic when theres no one there, i even seriously considered just staying awake for the 2 nights, which is obviously ridiculous.
does anyone have any idea at all what the problem might be + why i keep waking up? any suggestions at all? and does anyone have any ideas about what i can do? because im absolutely desperate to make it stop.
thank you for reading.