mila
23-07-13, 14:22
I am sorry, i always seem to write desperate posts, and long-winded... But right now i am at that place where you swera you just can't go on feeling what you do for another minute but yet there is nothing you can do about it! No where to turn either, no one is interested to hear.
I often have problem with post nasal drip, or they say that is what it is, basically i often feel congested and like there is stuff in my throat and between my throat and nose that I can't get out, and it is really uncomfortable. Sometimes i also get tight feeling in my throat and even deeper down where your voice box is, might be all the cattarh. It is very hard at night, feeling you can't breathe. I am constantly trying to swallow it ot cough it out, but it feel like i am trying to swallow my own tonsils, cause there is no relief at all.
Right now it feels worse then ever, last night I couldn't sleep, feeling like I am going to suffocate, like my whole throat is swollen inside or insulated with some stuff. Of course it is so so hard not to get panicky or not to pay attention to it, impossible. I got my PEAK flow meter, which a nurse told me I can use to show myself that I can actually breathe. I used it last night and today several times and I can blow up to 450 which is really good for me, if i have loads of cattarh and a cold it sometimes goes down to 380, but usually is 400-430, and ocassionally 450. So this is really good and normal for me. But can I still choke even if it shows I can breathe???? why do I feel so awful? I presume focusing on it must make the feeling worse but I am so scared, it also makes me feel depressed because i feel awful and can't relax, and even everyone around me noticed I am looking down and not myself.
I can't tell my partner how scared i am because he is really fed up with my contant visits to the doctor and not believing him when he tell me i am ok and gives me advice. I can't go back to my GP, they gave me steroid drops, and they did help me for a bit, i don't know why now i feel like this. And they are soon going to start banning me from getting appointments i think. I am really embarassed from going all the time, but what am I supposed to do. I wish I could just say whatever, if I am gonna suffocate let it be. Cause I just don't have the strenght anymore. Before this got worse I was already feeling really bad cause a few bad things happened and it really got to me, first i witnessed someone collaposing in the street, then a work colleague got taken into hospital from work with pulmonary embolism and we were working very closely the my friend pregnant over 20 weeks had to teminate due to some issues and now my other firend is having some infection after ectopic preganncy that is not getting better and I am really worried. All this within a week. I couldn't sleep thinking about that work colleague for couple of days after. So I am pretty depressed anyway.
I would love to escape my own body if possible. I know before I used to find it hard to breathe and it is one of the worst symptoms I ever had, i never learned to cope with it...
Has anyone felt this so bad? I really feel like my throat or the back of my tongue is swollen and huge but apparently it looks normal, and i feel so tight when breathing, i really feel like i will suffocate or choke. I am also bloated with loads of gas which does not help at all.
I am sorry for being such a wining coward....but i don't know what to do.
I often have problem with post nasal drip, or they say that is what it is, basically i often feel congested and like there is stuff in my throat and between my throat and nose that I can't get out, and it is really uncomfortable. Sometimes i also get tight feeling in my throat and even deeper down where your voice box is, might be all the cattarh. It is very hard at night, feeling you can't breathe. I am constantly trying to swallow it ot cough it out, but it feel like i am trying to swallow my own tonsils, cause there is no relief at all.
Right now it feels worse then ever, last night I couldn't sleep, feeling like I am going to suffocate, like my whole throat is swollen inside or insulated with some stuff. Of course it is so so hard not to get panicky or not to pay attention to it, impossible. I got my PEAK flow meter, which a nurse told me I can use to show myself that I can actually breathe. I used it last night and today several times and I can blow up to 450 which is really good for me, if i have loads of cattarh and a cold it sometimes goes down to 380, but usually is 400-430, and ocassionally 450. So this is really good and normal for me. But can I still choke even if it shows I can breathe???? why do I feel so awful? I presume focusing on it must make the feeling worse but I am so scared, it also makes me feel depressed because i feel awful and can't relax, and even everyone around me noticed I am looking down and not myself.
I can't tell my partner how scared i am because he is really fed up with my contant visits to the doctor and not believing him when he tell me i am ok and gives me advice. I can't go back to my GP, they gave me steroid drops, and they did help me for a bit, i don't know why now i feel like this. And they are soon going to start banning me from getting appointments i think. I am really embarassed from going all the time, but what am I supposed to do. I wish I could just say whatever, if I am gonna suffocate let it be. Cause I just don't have the strenght anymore. Before this got worse I was already feeling really bad cause a few bad things happened and it really got to me, first i witnessed someone collaposing in the street, then a work colleague got taken into hospital from work with pulmonary embolism and we were working very closely the my friend pregnant over 20 weeks had to teminate due to some issues and now my other firend is having some infection after ectopic preganncy that is not getting better and I am really worried. All this within a week. I couldn't sleep thinking about that work colleague for couple of days after. So I am pretty depressed anyway.
I would love to escape my own body if possible. I know before I used to find it hard to breathe and it is one of the worst symptoms I ever had, i never learned to cope with it...
Has anyone felt this so bad? I really feel like my throat or the back of my tongue is swollen and huge but apparently it looks normal, and i feel so tight when breathing, i really feel like i will suffocate or choke. I am also bloated with loads of gas which does not help at all.
I am sorry for being such a wining coward....but i don't know what to do.