MrsStobe13
26-07-13, 14:50
Hi all,
Just thought I'd let you know how today went at day one of therapy.To be honest, I didn't think it seemed particularly helpful. The therapist asked me a load of questions about what I've been dealing with, whether I've thought about suicide, if I've self-harmed etc. She gave me two tests, one which looks at how depressed I am and one at how anxious I am. The scores were 22/27 on depression and 21/21 on anxiety. She then went on to ask me about the intrusive thoughts, their content, how I feel when I get them etc.
After about a 45 minute talk she started telling me about the "psychotherapy" courses they offer. The first one looks at dealing with stress and bad thoughts. After that she realised a lot of the techniques I know from the great people of NMP are already covered by that course, and suggested one about dealing with OCD instead. It's a CBT course but I'm in two minds whether to attend it. On one hand, it might be useful, but on the other hand it's group therapy and not individual therapy so there is no 1:1 support. The aim of the course is to provide you with techniques to cope with OCD but I feel as I have Brain Lock & Imp of the Mind already, I sort of..already have those techniques. This sort of makes the course invaluable to me, I feel. I'd personally rather they offer it to somebody who doesn't know about these books and techniques.
I can't say as it was an easy appointment. I cried, lots. To be honest, I'm glad it was just me and the therapist, I wasn't so forced and unnatural. I just said it how it is. I think the hardest part was when she asked me whether there was anyone I considered significant enough to me for me not to commit suicide. I immediately curled up and sobbed, then whispered "my husband- he's my world, my everything" and went on to tell her the story of the "if we can deal with this, we can deal with anything" agreement we made when my father-in-law was made bankrupt and my Nan was diagnosed with Altzheimer's Disease. I then went on to tell her about how my then boyfriend held me to my word and proposed 2 years later when the storm had blown over.
Unfortunately, they don't do an actual diagnosis and to get this I need to go back to my GP. The problem with that is that he is away until October. I already feel like I've maybe not been diagnosed because I've been batted around between three doctors. OCD is never a diagnosis you want, but if it's something you have, you might as well grin and accept it. That's how I'm seeing it now, anyway. The ironic thing is the more I hear myself talk, the more I realise I myself sound like a typical OCD sufferer, not a killer!
MrsS x
Just thought I'd let you know how today went at day one of therapy.To be honest, I didn't think it seemed particularly helpful. The therapist asked me a load of questions about what I've been dealing with, whether I've thought about suicide, if I've self-harmed etc. She gave me two tests, one which looks at how depressed I am and one at how anxious I am. The scores were 22/27 on depression and 21/21 on anxiety. She then went on to ask me about the intrusive thoughts, their content, how I feel when I get them etc.
After about a 45 minute talk she started telling me about the "psychotherapy" courses they offer. The first one looks at dealing with stress and bad thoughts. After that she realised a lot of the techniques I know from the great people of NMP are already covered by that course, and suggested one about dealing with OCD instead. It's a CBT course but I'm in two minds whether to attend it. On one hand, it might be useful, but on the other hand it's group therapy and not individual therapy so there is no 1:1 support. The aim of the course is to provide you with techniques to cope with OCD but I feel as I have Brain Lock & Imp of the Mind already, I sort of..already have those techniques. This sort of makes the course invaluable to me, I feel. I'd personally rather they offer it to somebody who doesn't know about these books and techniques.
I can't say as it was an easy appointment. I cried, lots. To be honest, I'm glad it was just me and the therapist, I wasn't so forced and unnatural. I just said it how it is. I think the hardest part was when she asked me whether there was anyone I considered significant enough to me for me not to commit suicide. I immediately curled up and sobbed, then whispered "my husband- he's my world, my everything" and went on to tell her the story of the "if we can deal with this, we can deal with anything" agreement we made when my father-in-law was made bankrupt and my Nan was diagnosed with Altzheimer's Disease. I then went on to tell her about how my then boyfriend held me to my word and proposed 2 years later when the storm had blown over.
Unfortunately, they don't do an actual diagnosis and to get this I need to go back to my GP. The problem with that is that he is away until October. I already feel like I've maybe not been diagnosed because I've been batted around between three doctors. OCD is never a diagnosis you want, but if it's something you have, you might as well grin and accept it. That's how I'm seeing it now, anyway. The ironic thing is the more I hear myself talk, the more I realise I myself sound like a typical OCD sufferer, not a killer!
MrsS x