Elf20
27-07-13, 16:10
Do you identify yourself as straight, gay/lesbian or bi? How did you find out and how did you let others know? :)
So, here goes my story: As a small kid, i wasn't attracted neither to boys or girls. I saw all kids as "siblings" and i really didn't care about their gender. However, i used to play more with boys than girls. As i was growing up, the groups started to separate. Girls hang out with girls and boys with boys. I was a typical tomboy. I was attracted to boys, but i also remember being confused about my feelings for my closest friend. I was terribly worried i might liked her in the same way she liked boys, and i kept thinking to myself that this thought was ridiculus and nonsense. After all, she was kinda "under my protection" because she was bullied a lot, and i had develloped some affection for her.
In highschool, i was attracted to some boys but also to a tomboy (in the 2nd grade), but again i was trying to convince myself that this couldn't happen. I thought it was "unnatural" and "bad". I met her again last summer, after a few years that i hadn't seen her, and although i still found her nice as a person, all this confusing feeling had vanished. I just talked to her like there was nothing weird between us.
Anyway, now i am 17 and i recently got over my prejudices about sexuality. I have a boyfriend, to whom i feel romantically attracted but he doesn't turn me on at all. Male genitals look unattractive to me, in general. I only watch lesbian porn and i masturbate while having fantasies about other girls. I even have sex with girls in some of my dreams. Last night i met a girl and i thought she was very cute but i was afraid to make a move because she was obviously straight. I think i like both guys and girls but i am not sure if it is "a phase" or something like that. It is a fact that both turn me on (in different ways maybe) though... :noangel:
So, here goes my story: As a small kid, i wasn't attracted neither to boys or girls. I saw all kids as "siblings" and i really didn't care about their gender. However, i used to play more with boys than girls. As i was growing up, the groups started to separate. Girls hang out with girls and boys with boys. I was a typical tomboy. I was attracted to boys, but i also remember being confused about my feelings for my closest friend. I was terribly worried i might liked her in the same way she liked boys, and i kept thinking to myself that this thought was ridiculus and nonsense. After all, she was kinda "under my protection" because she was bullied a lot, and i had develloped some affection for her.
In highschool, i was attracted to some boys but also to a tomboy (in the 2nd grade), but again i was trying to convince myself that this couldn't happen. I thought it was "unnatural" and "bad". I met her again last summer, after a few years that i hadn't seen her, and although i still found her nice as a person, all this confusing feeling had vanished. I just talked to her like there was nothing weird between us.
Anyway, now i am 17 and i recently got over my prejudices about sexuality. I have a boyfriend, to whom i feel romantically attracted but he doesn't turn me on at all. Male genitals look unattractive to me, in general. I only watch lesbian porn and i masturbate while having fantasies about other girls. I even have sex with girls in some of my dreams. Last night i met a girl and i thought she was very cute but i was afraid to make a move because she was obviously straight. I think i like both guys and girls but i am not sure if it is "a phase" or something like that. It is a fact that both turn me on (in different ways maybe) though... :noangel: