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27-07-13, 22:44
Following my introduction thread, I recently went on a date with a girl and I had a panic attack as soon as we go down to eat.
After the dinner I couldn't help but apologise and feel completely embarrassed, she said "it's okay, if it makes a story, it's a good day" or something along those lines. After this attack, we went to the park and sat down for a bit, I think we got on rather well although we're two completely different people.
On the train ride home, I was fine and had no problem smiling. When I got home, it hit me. I was depressed, super depressed. I had got to a stage where I just wanted to kill myself.
All my family did that night was moan at me because I did something wrong earlier that day, and that added on to the depression.
Now the girl I went on the date with will not reply to my texts. I'm sick of messing things up for myself.
I'm just wondering how I can deal with this sort of depression? feeling sorry for myself sort of stuff.
After the dinner I couldn't help but apologise and feel completely embarrassed, she said "it's okay, if it makes a story, it's a good day" or something along those lines. After this attack, we went to the park and sat down for a bit, I think we got on rather well although we're two completely different people.
On the train ride home, I was fine and had no problem smiling. When I got home, it hit me. I was depressed, super depressed. I had got to a stage where I just wanted to kill myself.
All my family did that night was moan at me because I did something wrong earlier that day, and that added on to the depression.
Now the girl I went on the date with will not reply to my texts. I'm sick of messing things up for myself.
I'm just wondering how I can deal with this sort of depression? feeling sorry for myself sort of stuff.