KX501
28-07-13, 20:32
hello everone
Hi I am 35 and live in bournemouth. I have not been on ths site since a year and half ago when i needed it most. Since my last visit I spent some time feeling ok but overall it has been a rollecoaster and it lead me to resigning from my job earlier in the year, more indepth counselling and now 40mg of citalopram. I did find a job to keep the money coming in as I am on my own and have a 15 year old to look after but I still struggle with my problem. Today I cant stop crying and the thought of facing people tomorrow is scaring me allready. This has completely come out of the blue again.
I hope i feel better and try and make it in to wor but part of me wants to see my doctor and go on the sick - I just dont think im fit for any work at the moment.
I hve seen lots of therapists over the years as this is something that has gone and then returned. For the first time I spoke to my doctor and a specific counsellor to address my childhood abuse, this year was the first time I addressed it but I never got to complete it fully as nhs only do 8 sessions. At that point I thought I was getting better as i was about to start a new job and felt ok so i didnt follow it up privately and I know I still need to. As im only 2 months into my new job and the depression and axiety is getting the better of me again. I have been trying to hide from it and keep busy and find milestones to look forward to but right now that dont seem to be working.
I could go on and maybe i will another time.
I hope to find support here and give support too.
Hi I am 35 and live in bournemouth. I have not been on ths site since a year and half ago when i needed it most. Since my last visit I spent some time feeling ok but overall it has been a rollecoaster and it lead me to resigning from my job earlier in the year, more indepth counselling and now 40mg of citalopram. I did find a job to keep the money coming in as I am on my own and have a 15 year old to look after but I still struggle with my problem. Today I cant stop crying and the thought of facing people tomorrow is scaring me allready. This has completely come out of the blue again.
I hope i feel better and try and make it in to wor but part of me wants to see my doctor and go on the sick - I just dont think im fit for any work at the moment.
I hve seen lots of therapists over the years as this is something that has gone and then returned. For the first time I spoke to my doctor and a specific counsellor to address my childhood abuse, this year was the first time I addressed it but I never got to complete it fully as nhs only do 8 sessions. At that point I thought I was getting better as i was about to start a new job and felt ok so i didnt follow it up privately and I know I still need to. As im only 2 months into my new job and the depression and axiety is getting the better of me again. I have been trying to hide from it and keep busy and find milestones to look forward to but right now that dont seem to be working.
I could go on and maybe i will another time.
I hope to find support here and give support too.