moonspirit
02-08-13, 10:48
Where does all the fear come from? why all the what if?
Im tired now and im starting to get angry with it, its just constantly going around my head to the point my head hurts not a headache but it really hurts like a pain in a muscle thats been over worked. Its got to be the constant arguing between the both sides of my brain!! my biggest problem is death not for myself but for my closest around me its becoming like an obsession i wake with it every morning and it can get better as the day goes on but i just break down in tears constantly thoughout the day thinking of the what ifs and how will i managed if the what if came true i know im spoiling the moment and not enjoying the now and missing out on making new memories. I wonder why i do it to myself and more than anything i wonder why i cant stop it from happening to myself i know it will eventually pass but i wish it would hurry up before i do land in a heap from exhaustion!
Im tired now and im starting to get angry with it, its just constantly going around my head to the point my head hurts not a headache but it really hurts like a pain in a muscle thats been over worked. Its got to be the constant arguing between the both sides of my brain!! my biggest problem is death not for myself but for my closest around me its becoming like an obsession i wake with it every morning and it can get better as the day goes on but i just break down in tears constantly thoughout the day thinking of the what ifs and how will i managed if the what if came true i know im spoiling the moment and not enjoying the now and missing out on making new memories. I wonder why i do it to myself and more than anything i wonder why i cant stop it from happening to myself i know it will eventually pass but i wish it would hurry up before i do land in a heap from exhaustion!