Gotagetthroughthis
04-08-13, 15:39
Hi my anxiety buddies I hope you are all well today.
I haven't been on this site as much recently as ive been trying to keep away from most things anxiety related in a hope I can begin to move on from this stage of my life (the worst stage of my life ive ever experienced).
I have given in and am making this post as I just feel like im going downhill. I started a new job after a year off work with anxiety. The week just gone was my forth week at the new job and it was probably my worst so far. I was having random sharp pains in my head on and off all day along with various other strange feelings in my head. I do get these most days anyway but last week was just none stop and it really grinded me down and kicked off my health anxiety again and convinced me there is something medically wrong with me. I don't let this symptoms get me in a panic anymore but they really do wear me down. Since then Ive just had a really depressing weekend with on and off feelings off complete doom and hopelessness.
Today I woke up at about 5am after a couple hours sleep with bad stomach pains. Stomach pains is something I rarely get so as it is new to me its got me worked up. Been having diarrhea all day and every time i try and eat my stomach starts hurting again.
I just feel so hopeless, this anxiety/depression just feels never ending. I have pushed myself back into work and thought I was beginning to overcome some of my anxiety but when I wasn't feeling super anxious i just started feeling hopeless and depressed.
I see no point in anything now, i don't enjoy anything, im just going through the cycle of anxiety and depression, 1 week thinking im getting slightly better and the next im getting a lot worse.
I don't really want to ask for time off work to go to the doctor as ive just started this job, plus there's not much the doctors going to do anyway apart from ask if i want to go back on anti depressants (I am debating this at the moment)
My emotions are just all over the place.
Not sure what questions I was going to ask in this thread, just guess im going through a bad time and feel things are getting worse again, feel like I could go back to the worst place ive been and i dont think i could do cope with that again. Kind of back in the looking for reassurance loop I guess and looking for some advice. Thanks for reading guys.
I haven't been on this site as much recently as ive been trying to keep away from most things anxiety related in a hope I can begin to move on from this stage of my life (the worst stage of my life ive ever experienced).
I have given in and am making this post as I just feel like im going downhill. I started a new job after a year off work with anxiety. The week just gone was my forth week at the new job and it was probably my worst so far. I was having random sharp pains in my head on and off all day along with various other strange feelings in my head. I do get these most days anyway but last week was just none stop and it really grinded me down and kicked off my health anxiety again and convinced me there is something medically wrong with me. I don't let this symptoms get me in a panic anymore but they really do wear me down. Since then Ive just had a really depressing weekend with on and off feelings off complete doom and hopelessness.
Today I woke up at about 5am after a couple hours sleep with bad stomach pains. Stomach pains is something I rarely get so as it is new to me its got me worked up. Been having diarrhea all day and every time i try and eat my stomach starts hurting again.
I just feel so hopeless, this anxiety/depression just feels never ending. I have pushed myself back into work and thought I was beginning to overcome some of my anxiety but when I wasn't feeling super anxious i just started feeling hopeless and depressed.
I see no point in anything now, i don't enjoy anything, im just going through the cycle of anxiety and depression, 1 week thinking im getting slightly better and the next im getting a lot worse.
I don't really want to ask for time off work to go to the doctor as ive just started this job, plus there's not much the doctors going to do anyway apart from ask if i want to go back on anti depressants (I am debating this at the moment)
My emotions are just all over the place.
Not sure what questions I was going to ask in this thread, just guess im going through a bad time and feel things are getting worse again, feel like I could go back to the worst place ive been and i dont think i could do cope with that again. Kind of back in the looking for reassurance loop I guess and looking for some advice. Thanks for reading guys.