Annie0904
04-08-13, 21:33
I started posting on NMP a year ago and those of you who have been following my threads will know how bad I was then, constant high anxiety, shaking, nauseous, heart racing, unable to eat or sleep, constant crying. I was unable to leave my house or some days unable to leave my bedroom. My doctor had to do home visits.
I have been on medication since then. This time last year I was taking 125 mg dosulipin and 15mg chlordiazipoxide. I also had diazepam to help me get some relief to be able to sleep.
Since then I have had intense Psychotherapy and have also received help from Robin Hall's CBT4panic.
Support from my lovely NMP friends has also been a huge help to me.
One year on...I am taking 25 mg Dosulipin. I have been on holiday to Croatia. Earlier this week I went away for a couple of days with 2 friends (first time away without my husband in 14 years!).
I left my job in February due to my anxiety and have no regrets about this. I was working in a secondary school and have lots of qualifications but was not happy in my work place any more. I am now doing a cleaning job (cleaning a friends home) and selling door to door cosmetics and loving it. I can do it at my own pace and it is giving me good exercise and fresh air.
I have my confidence back and feel so happy with my life. This time last year I was wishing I didn't have to live any more but now I am happy to be alive :)
I still get twinges of anxiety but try to focus on the positives and know that these little symptoms will pass. I have learned to feel the fear and do it anyway. I even stroked a horses head yesterday (I have a huge phobia of horses!).
I know the anxiety could return one day if a trigger comes along but the important think is that I have overcome it and can do it again. I really hope that my story here will give others hope that they can overcome these awful symptoms and feel happy again. When I first started counselling my therapist asked what I hoped to achieve from the counselling and my reply was to be confident and happy.
I have had some really traumatic events in the past. We can't change the past but we can learn from these experiences and move on from them to help us build a better future. At the moment I feel like I have what I told my counsellor I hoped to achieve. I wish everyone else here success in their recovery. You CAN do it..you just have to believe you can and look at the positives no matter how small they may seem.
I have been on medication since then. This time last year I was taking 125 mg dosulipin and 15mg chlordiazipoxide. I also had diazepam to help me get some relief to be able to sleep.
Since then I have had intense Psychotherapy and have also received help from Robin Hall's CBT4panic.
Support from my lovely NMP friends has also been a huge help to me.
One year on...I am taking 25 mg Dosulipin. I have been on holiday to Croatia. Earlier this week I went away for a couple of days with 2 friends (first time away without my husband in 14 years!).
I left my job in February due to my anxiety and have no regrets about this. I was working in a secondary school and have lots of qualifications but was not happy in my work place any more. I am now doing a cleaning job (cleaning a friends home) and selling door to door cosmetics and loving it. I can do it at my own pace and it is giving me good exercise and fresh air.
I have my confidence back and feel so happy with my life. This time last year I was wishing I didn't have to live any more but now I am happy to be alive :)
I still get twinges of anxiety but try to focus on the positives and know that these little symptoms will pass. I have learned to feel the fear and do it anyway. I even stroked a horses head yesterday (I have a huge phobia of horses!).
I know the anxiety could return one day if a trigger comes along but the important think is that I have overcome it and can do it again. I really hope that my story here will give others hope that they can overcome these awful symptoms and feel happy again. When I first started counselling my therapist asked what I hoped to achieve from the counselling and my reply was to be confident and happy.
I have had some really traumatic events in the past. We can't change the past but we can learn from these experiences and move on from them to help us build a better future. At the moment I feel like I have what I told my counsellor I hoped to achieve. I wish everyone else here success in their recovery. You CAN do it..you just have to believe you can and look at the positives no matter how small they may seem.