mila
05-08-13, 15:28
What have I done to deserve this...
I am at work and I went out for my lunch break with my friend. I just decided yesterday how i feel not let my fears stop me, in particular i want to lose weight for my wedding and holiday but am too scared to do any exercise because of lightheadedness i often have. And just now I feel like I am either having something very serious going on and the worst is about to happen or i am having the worst set back ever.
I am so so panicked. I used to get horrendus symptoms to be honest, every single day, and every time I thought that was it, the end, they were so awful,that it was so hard to believe nothing was wrong with me. It took me so many years to get better and not get so bad if i get some symptoms, and they stopped being so bad. But today I felt that shere panic, and I feel hopeless again like then, like this is it, and if not every day I will live in fear. I am not able to enjoy things anymore again. I can't take it again, my life was a night mare.
Today I just at first started feeling lightheaded. Then my head got this weird feeling that I find so hard to explain, like my brain inside is buzzing if i talk but also from silence, so strange, and so so uncomfortable, my head feels just all over the place and I am so tensed up trying to prevent myself from falling over, I feel really unsteady, and when i am looking things seem weird, like i am looking from inside somewhere, like things seem distant but i know they're not. I hate it when i feel horrible but you can't even explain what you feel. I also feel lightheaded. And my eyes feel strange too. I keep yawning as well. I know this doesn't sound too bad when you read but it's because i can't really explain very well what it really feels like. Does this sound familiar to anyone please...or is there something wrong with me....
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Also my arms feel weird now, weak and like they are not all mine, especially my left arm, which is panicing me right now so much....
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I also look so pale. I told my friend how i'm feeling and she said when we were coming back from lunch i got really pale and now shye said i still look pale so I went to the bathroom to look at myself and i am now even more scared. I am so worried something is horribly wrong with me. I got pains now too in my left arm.
I am a total mess and am hidding in one of the offices crying, and reading anxiety stuff cause i want this so much to be anxiety and not something awful, like brain thing or heart thing or god knows what...
I am at work and I went out for my lunch break with my friend. I just decided yesterday how i feel not let my fears stop me, in particular i want to lose weight for my wedding and holiday but am too scared to do any exercise because of lightheadedness i often have. And just now I feel like I am either having something very serious going on and the worst is about to happen or i am having the worst set back ever.
I am so so panicked. I used to get horrendus symptoms to be honest, every single day, and every time I thought that was it, the end, they were so awful,that it was so hard to believe nothing was wrong with me. It took me so many years to get better and not get so bad if i get some symptoms, and they stopped being so bad. But today I felt that shere panic, and I feel hopeless again like then, like this is it, and if not every day I will live in fear. I am not able to enjoy things anymore again. I can't take it again, my life was a night mare.
Today I just at first started feeling lightheaded. Then my head got this weird feeling that I find so hard to explain, like my brain inside is buzzing if i talk but also from silence, so strange, and so so uncomfortable, my head feels just all over the place and I am so tensed up trying to prevent myself from falling over, I feel really unsteady, and when i am looking things seem weird, like i am looking from inside somewhere, like things seem distant but i know they're not. I hate it when i feel horrible but you can't even explain what you feel. I also feel lightheaded. And my eyes feel strange too. I keep yawning as well. I know this doesn't sound too bad when you read but it's because i can't really explain very well what it really feels like. Does this sound familiar to anyone please...or is there something wrong with me....
---------- Post added at 13:58 ---------- Previous post was at 13:39 ----------
Also my arms feel weird now, weak and like they are not all mine, especially my left arm, which is panicing me right now so much....
---------- Post added at 15:28 ---------- Previous post was at 13:58 ----------
I also look so pale. I told my friend how i'm feeling and she said when we were coming back from lunch i got really pale and now shye said i still look pale so I went to the bathroom to look at myself and i am now even more scared. I am so worried something is horribly wrong with me. I got pains now too in my left arm.
I am a total mess and am hidding in one of the offices crying, and reading anxiety stuff cause i want this so much to be anxiety and not something awful, like brain thing or heart thing or god knows what...